Things to remember so I don't kill myself (for reals)
I tend to get stuck in these negative thought loops, so I gotta keep some things in mind/get a mental grip on the scope of these problems.
Problem: You don't have any fucking money. You don't get paid a lot and you're not saving anything and you're fucking poor.
Remember: You have next to no debt. You're a little behind this month because you got slammed with two large car-related costs in a one-month period. Just stick to your $200/week budget (and shoot for less!) and you should be back to normal after a month. In addition, you can continue riding your bike in lieu of driving whenever possible, and that will cut out gas and part-replacement costs.
Problem: OK. So maybe you're not totally poor, but your job still sucks. There is little chance for advancement OR pay raises and your coworkers can often seem VENGEFULLY stupid.
Remember: Try to apply to at least one new place per week. Some place that perhaps suggests you can advance in the company. Perhaps even in another part of the country that isn't terrible.
Problem: Even if you find a new job, it's just going to be more admin/customer service horseshit. You've been an admin assistant for 3 different companies in the last 6 years. It's all you're qualified to do, and it's all anyone is going to hire you as. You just keep starting over and over at the bottom.
Remember: When looking for your next job, keep that in mind. You know administrative stuff is well below your mental ability, so in your next job, work hard and show them you're capable of more. Additionally, perhaps you can take classes in accounting or something. They cost a lot, but maybe it's worth it.
Problem: You haven't had anything resembling a girlfriend in like, 5 years. In fact, you really haven't even been on a single date in that entire time. It's probably because you're not that good looking and probably aren't as interesting as you'd like to think you are. Also, chances are, you're sociopathic. And incapable of love. You know you can't handle being in relationships and you're most likely going to die alone.
Remember: You live in a place that doesn't exactly foster awesome chicks. It's difficult to find someone with similar interests, especially in your age range since everyone you meet tends to be younger than you. But maybe things will be better if you met someone that was a good fit. Perhaps put a little more effort in on dating websites and be willing to date girls from further away, like LA. Or maybe be more bold in meeting people in real life. You were able to get that Greenpeace gal's phone number, so you're probably not totally terrible. Granted, that may have been a fake number, but you were still brave enough to do it, so you can do it again.
Problem: Everyone your age is married or has kids or is buying a house. You are single and poor and live with a dude you knew from high school. Everyone good is going to be married by the time you even figure out how to be in a relationship. You've really only been in one long-term one, you know.
Remember: You can't judge your own life compared to other people. You know that you just need to put a lot of work into certain areas, and then hopefully things will turn out OK. And if they don't, at least you tried. But you know you HAVE to try.
Problem: You're fat.
Remember: Yeah, I know...
Problem: You don't have any fucking money. You don't get paid a lot and you're not saving anything and you're fucking poor.
Remember: You have next to no debt. You're a little behind this month because you got slammed with two large car-related costs in a one-month period. Just stick to your $200/week budget (and shoot for less!) and you should be back to normal after a month. In addition, you can continue riding your bike in lieu of driving whenever possible, and that will cut out gas and part-replacement costs.
Problem: OK. So maybe you're not totally poor, but your job still sucks. There is little chance for advancement OR pay raises and your coworkers can often seem VENGEFULLY stupid.
Remember: Try to apply to at least one new place per week. Some place that perhaps suggests you can advance in the company. Perhaps even in another part of the country that isn't terrible.
Problem: Even if you find a new job, it's just going to be more admin/customer service horseshit. You've been an admin assistant for 3 different companies in the last 6 years. It's all you're qualified to do, and it's all anyone is going to hire you as. You just keep starting over and over at the bottom.
Remember: When looking for your next job, keep that in mind. You know administrative stuff is well below your mental ability, so in your next job, work hard and show them you're capable of more. Additionally, perhaps you can take classes in accounting or something. They cost a lot, but maybe it's worth it.
Problem: You haven't had anything resembling a girlfriend in like, 5 years. In fact, you really haven't even been on a single date in that entire time. It's probably because you're not that good looking and probably aren't as interesting as you'd like to think you are. Also, chances are, you're sociopathic. And incapable of love. You know you can't handle being in relationships and you're most likely going to die alone.
Remember: You live in a place that doesn't exactly foster awesome chicks. It's difficult to find someone with similar interests, especially in your age range since everyone you meet tends to be younger than you. But maybe things will be better if you met someone that was a good fit. Perhaps put a little more effort in on dating websites and be willing to date girls from further away, like LA. Or maybe be more bold in meeting people in real life. You were able to get that Greenpeace gal's phone number, so you're probably not totally terrible. Granted, that may have been a fake number, but you were still brave enough to do it, so you can do it again.
Problem: Everyone your age is married or has kids or is buying a house. You are single and poor and live with a dude you knew from high school. Everyone good is going to be married by the time you even figure out how to be in a relationship. You've really only been in one long-term one, you know.
Remember: You can't judge your own life compared to other people. You know that you just need to put a lot of work into certain areas, and then hopefully things will turn out OK. And if they don't, at least you tried. But you know you HAVE to try.
Problem: You're fat.
Remember: Yeah, I know...