I couldn't believe all of this stuff. I was pretty new to this whole scooby gang thing and I was still trying to deal with...wow, hey I'm a werewolf here
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Poor Giles. He was just so heartbroken, and- and- he had almost died! A few more minutes and he would have been all squished and mush and... I really didn't want to think what else
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See? There he goes again doing the whole 'not panicking' thing. I almost wanted to ask him how he did that, how he made the world feel as if it weren't falling apart. But before I could even try to get one more syllable in there and go off on another panic ramble he kissed me.
It was small, short and sweet, and it totally put me at ease. I think that it was the first peaceful moment I had had since the initial phone call from Giles.
"Everything is going to be okay, Willow.""Huh?" I said... after opening my eyes after his soft kiss and forgetting for that one moment all that I had been telling him
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I was going to say more, but all that I could manage was the you're welcome.
I was missing chromosomes or something because at moments like these, I could never open up. I needed to be there for her, but if I tried, then I would have to bail, and that isn't what she needed right now.
All of this was terrible, awful, a friend now a killer, killing someone that we all knew and that Willow had reverence for, even though miss Calendar had not been honest with Buffy concerning Angel.
I wasn't clear on all of the details, but I knew there was tension there, it was interesting, or had been, until she ended up dead and Buffy was so hurt by all of this.
I drove down the road, expecting Angel to just pop out at us, but I didn't display the fear emotion. That was the last thing that Willow needed to see right now.
"Buffy's going to stop this, Willow. Don't you feel that too?"
Not comforting words, per se, but hey, it was a step in that direction and I needed to learn how to handle these situations better.
Okay... yeah, sure, I was calm now. Sure I was. I was calmly shaking into pieces, but I was doing so much better than before.
I looked at Oz as he drove for any expression of doubt in what he had said before, but as usual, he was the picture of perfect calm. I mean, just a few weeks ago, he was simply Oz.
He didn't know about demons or vampires or the strange happenings of Sunnydale... okay yeah, werewolf, but he probably had thought that he was the only one in the area... and from what we knew he... was.
But even with that he managed not to freak out. And what about the first time he saw a vampire? He was totally like, 'did you see that? The guy just turned to dust.' I guess it was rather comforting.
"Buffy's going to stop this, Willow. Don't you feel that too?"
Finally my thoughts were interrupted by his calm and soothing voice.
"Huh? Oh, well, yeah... she has to Oz. She's the slayer." And my best friend. "She's stronger than you know..."
In a moment like this, it was all that I could do, because while I was smitten with her and while I was starting to get more comfortable with her, I hadn't yet reached that point where I could easily start confiding in her.
It took me a while before I reached that point, which, yeah, sucked at a time like this.
"I know how strong Buffy is, Willow. Remember the day that I got shot? She had thrown me up against the locker that day and I was like, she's a very intense person. I thought that she was going to break my back when she did it, and she's going to kill him, Willow. I feel it."
I remembered that day, it was the first time Oz and I were in the same room together for more than... well, ever. And it was kinda nice just sitting there next to him after all the barfy feeling went away
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I only knew too well what she was talking about and if you took the fact that I didn't of free will take anyone's life, Willow was in the same position that Buffy was in.....I was a monster, but of course, I wasn't the same kind of monster.
Wow, though. Thinking about it from another angel, a different linear plane, made me realize even further how deep it was that I was now what I was.
I didn't say anything, and had pensive face as I drove. What if it were the case that my monster manged to be unleashed and I found myself a killer?
Yeah, it would be different, because I would have killed, not knowing what I was doing or knowing any human feelins, at least as far as I had been able to tell from my first three nights of wolfness.
I wondered if Willow really thought about it, if she could look past our burgeoning feelings and see that there was a monster inside of me? Because, I was doing the same thing.
I could almost hear the crickets in his van, well, metaphorically speaking of course. Not that his van had any crickets in it, or maybe there were, but just couldn't hear them now but only metaphorically.
Frowning, I looked at Oz, he was never much with the talkage unless he had something really important to say, and you'd think I'd be used to that by now, but I really wasn't. After all the rides home, after all the few times we had spent together, he still felt a little distant. Yeah, there were fuzzy feelings between us, but there was something...
Suddenly I realized... what I had said before, about Buffy being the slayer, and having to get rid of the monsters.
I touched his arm and gave him a half smile, "Oz, I didn't- you know, mean to sound, well, mean about the monster part. I mean, I did, but not about the mean part, only about the Angel being a monster, because that's what he is now, a monster with no feelings whatsoever. And you- you're Oz. Okay so, there's the wolf thing to consider, but it's not like you can help
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"Well, I don't know if I would go right to skanky, but she certainly is scary."
It was good that she changed the topic. She was so right about Cordelia's evil streak.
It was amazing how many guys, like Devon, went out with her and then were so quickly disacarded.
I didn't want to tell Xander, but he was in for another dumping only the next one, would be of the permanent nature.
Or maybe I was wrong.
I was also glad that she had made a joke about her monthly cycle as opposed to mine, and while jokes weren't necessarily my strength, I felt one coming on.
"Yeah, good point, except at least you stay who you are on those three terrible days. But, if we keep things secure with me, then maybe there will be more blood in your three day cycle then in mine."
It was freaksome to even consider. God, I hoped that I didn't hurt anyone. Actually it was soemthing that i thought about all of the time, especially with what had just happened to Ms. Calendar.
Okay so maybe skanky had been too strong of a word, but I couldn't help it. I was still a little 'grr' over the whole, Xander loves Cordelia show. And to make things clear, I wasn't mad that Xander was in love, I was mad that he was in love with Cordelia Chase. CORDELIA CHASE! We were president and vice-president of the 'We hate Cordelia Club' and and and, I just didn't understand him, was all.
"Yeah, good point, except at least you stay who you are on those three terrible days. But, if we keep things secure with me, then maybe there will be more blood in your three day cycle then in mine.""Hee hee, you made a funny," I didn't know he could do that. He was always so serious and, yeah, well okay, there was the 'I mock you with my monkey pants joke' but that was just to break the ice, right
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I sat there, driving in the night towards her house, where any number of those things that she had mentioned...in which I made a mental count using my fingers whil she was doing it, could be out here, ready to make dark Sunnydale even more dark, could come out and attack us and especially, Angel right now.
Yeah, it's a good thing that it's dark outside righ now, because I would definitely be immediately tempted to say that Sunnydale could have the most azure blue sky outside and still not be considered sunny.
Yeah, I was worried about her even stepping foot out of my van right now.
Then again, it was my responsibility not to be worry guy for her. She was around Buffy and poor Giles all of the time and Xander, well, he was twitchy and strange.
"When all of those things that you mentioned are gone, I say big party on main street, streamers, flyers, live band, fruit punch bowls, the whole nine yards."
"When all of those things that you mentioned are gone, I say big party on main street, streamers, flyers, live band, fruit punch bowls, the whole nine yards.""Yay!" Was all I could think to say after all the thoughts that were going through my brain. After the initial shock of party talk I was finally able to elaborate on my well thought out 'Yay
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"You're welcome," I said, realizing that it was all that I could spit out right now.
I had seen lot of freaksome things before I knew what the twon was really like and now, they were only more pronounced, but one thing did remain the same.
How I felt about Willow and how those feelings were growing.
I had saw her a couple of times and wondered who that girl was, aloud and then I saw her on the whole corporate computer suit thing and my feelings for her continued to grow.
Yeah, getting shot, not on my top ten list, but then I found out about vampires, became a werewolf and she was still there for me.
"We'll get through this, Willow, I just know it, and when all is said and done, parades can be excluded, but I do want to be around with you and find a way to party just with you, just the two of us."
I smiled at him, and I was almost sad that he had to leave. I mean, it was really dark, and yeah, okay he had a van and he could just drive away from trouble at least at 60, maybe 50 miles per hour? Okay so maybe 45, but that was a good number. Yeah. A very fast four and five number... number
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Well, she had asked if I was and then, she rambled, in that incredibly cute way that was getting to a point, but you just had to follow along to keep up, about strength in numbers and had added the clause, I was just thinking.
I smiled at her. "Do you not want to be alone right now, Willow?"
I put my hand on her face and gave her my warmest smile. I was willing to do anything with her right now, and didn't see driving away as something that I needed to do right now.
This was a tough time for her and for Gilles and for Buffy, and while I couldn't do anything for them, I had to believe that I could at least be there for her.
Besides, she was always really cute when she was nervous or happy, or pretty much anything, and being around that, around her all of the time was something that I found to be of the good.
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She rambled and I loved the way that she rambled, even if it was over some circumstances that were beyond dire, to say the least.
Middle of town, side of the road, crazy vampires, wow, running the streets, didn't matter to me.
Not right now.
I moved over to the center console, and got on me knees as she was on the floor, because hey, not the tallest of individuals here.
I kissed her sweetly, just a peck on the lips, and then I looked her in the eyes. "Everything is going to be okay, Willow."
I didn't know it for sure, but I had to say it for her benefit, but somehow, I believed it.
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It was small, short and sweet, and it totally put me at ease. I think that it was the first peaceful moment I had had since the initial phone call from Giles.
"Everything is going to be okay, Willow.""Huh?" I said... after opening my eyes after his soft kiss and forgetting for that one moment all that I had been telling him ( ... )
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I was going to say more, but all that I could manage was the you're welcome.
I was missing chromosomes or something because at moments like these, I could never open up. I needed to be there for her, but if I tried, then I would have to bail, and that isn't what she needed right now.
All of this was terrible, awful, a friend now a killer, killing someone that we all knew and that Willow had reverence for, even though miss Calendar had not been honest with Buffy concerning Angel.
I wasn't clear on all of the details, but I knew there was tension there, it was interesting, or had been, until she ended up dead and Buffy was so hurt by all of this.
I drove down the road, expecting Angel to just pop out at us, but I didn't display the fear emotion. That was the last thing that Willow needed to see right now.
"Buffy's going to stop this, Willow. Don't you feel that too?"
Not comforting words, per se, but hey, it was a step in that direction and I needed to learn how to handle these situations better.
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I looked at Oz as he drove for any expression of doubt in what he had said before, but as usual, he was the picture of perfect calm. I mean, just a few weeks ago, he was simply Oz.
He didn't know about demons or vampires or the strange happenings of Sunnydale... okay yeah, werewolf, but he probably had thought that he was the only one in the area... and from what we knew he... was.
But even with that he managed not to freak out. And what about the first time he saw a vampire? He was totally like, 'did you see that? The guy just turned to dust.' I guess it was rather comforting.
"Buffy's going to stop this, Willow. Don't you feel that too?"
Finally my thoughts were interrupted by his calm and soothing voice.
"Huh? Oh, well, yeah... she has to Oz. She's the slayer." And my best friend. "She's stronger than you know..."
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In a moment like this, it was all that I could do, because while I was smitten with her and while I was starting to get more comfortable with her, I hadn't yet reached that point where I could easily start confiding in her.
It took me a while before I reached that point, which, yeah, sucked at a time like this.
"I know how strong Buffy is, Willow. Remember the day that I got shot? She had thrown me up against the locker that day and I was like, she's a very intense person. I thought that she was going to break my back when she did it, and she's going to kill him, Willow. I feel it."
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Wow, though. Thinking about it from another angel, a different linear plane, made me realize even further how deep it was that I was now what I was.
I didn't say anything, and had pensive face as I drove. What if it were the case that my monster manged to be unleashed and I found myself a killer?
Yeah, it would be different, because I would have killed, not knowing what I was doing or knowing any human feelins, at least as far as I had been able to tell from my first three nights of wolfness.
I wondered if Willow really thought about it, if she could look past our burgeoning feelings and see that there was a monster inside of me? Because, I was doing the same thing.
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Frowning, I looked at Oz, he was never much with the talkage unless he had something really important to say, and you'd think I'd be used to that by now, but I really wasn't. After all the rides home, after all the few times we had spent together, he still felt a little distant. Yeah, there were fuzzy feelings between us, but there was something...
Suddenly I realized... what I had said before, about Buffy being the slayer, and having to get rid of the monsters.
I touched his arm and gave him a half smile, "Oz, I didn't- you know, mean to sound, well, mean about the monster part. I mean, I did, but not about the mean part, only about the Angel being a monster, because that's what he is now, a monster with no feelings whatsoever. And you- you're Oz. Okay so, there's the wolf thing to consider, but it's not like you can help ( ... )
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It was good that she changed the topic. She was so right about Cordelia's evil streak.
It was amazing how many guys, like Devon, went out with her and then were so quickly disacarded.
I didn't want to tell Xander, but he was in for another dumping only the next one, would be of the permanent nature.
Or maybe I was wrong.
I was also glad that she had made a joke about her monthly cycle as opposed to mine, and while jokes weren't necessarily my strength, I felt one coming on.
"Yeah, good point, except at least you stay who you are on those three terrible days. But, if we keep things secure with me, then maybe there will be more blood in your three day cycle then in mine."
It was freaksome to even consider. God, I hoped that I didn't hurt anyone. Actually it was soemthing that i thought about all of the time, especially with what had just happened to Ms. Calendar.
"Is it me, or this town a bad place to live?"
Random. But. True.
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"Yeah, good point, except at least you stay who you are on those three terrible days. But, if we keep things secure with me, then maybe there will be more blood in your three day cycle then in mine.""Hee hee, you made a funny," I didn't know he could do that. He was always so serious and, yeah, well okay, there was the 'I mock you with my monkey pants joke' but that was just to break the ice, right ( ... )
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Yeah, it's a good thing that it's dark outside righ now, because I would definitely be immediately tempted to say that Sunnydale could have the most azure blue sky outside and still not be considered sunny.
Yeah, I was worried about her even stepping foot out of my van right now.
Then again, it was my responsibility not to be worry guy for her. She was around Buffy and poor Giles all of the time and Xander, well, he was twitchy and strange.
"When all of those things that you mentioned are gone, I say big party on main street, streamers, flyers, live band, fruit punch bowls, the whole nine yards."
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I had seen lot of freaksome things before I knew what the twon was really like and now, they were only more pronounced, but one thing did remain the same.
How I felt about Willow and how those feelings were growing.
I had saw her a couple of times and wondered who that girl was, aloud and then I saw her on the whole corporate computer suit thing and my feelings for her continued to grow.
Yeah, getting shot, not on my top ten list, but then I found out about vampires, became a werewolf and she was still there for me.
"We'll get through this, Willow, I just know it, and when all is said and done, parades can be excluded, but I do want to be around with you and find a way to party just with you, just the two of us."
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Well, she had asked if I was and then, she rambled, in that incredibly cute way that was getting to a point, but you just had to follow along to keep up, about strength in numbers and had added the clause, I was just thinking.
I smiled at her. "Do you not want to be alone right now, Willow?"
I put my hand on her face and gave her my warmest smile. I was willing to do anything with her right now, and didn't see driving away as something that I needed to do right now.
This was a tough time for her and for Gilles and for Buffy, and while I couldn't do anything for them, I had to believe that I could at least be there for her.
Besides, she was always really cute when she was nervous or happy, or pretty much anything, and being around that, around her all of the time was something that I found to be of the good.
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