Humour
Haw. Haw.
"This is to whomever it may concern, to tell the truth it's aimed at one person in particular. It is an apology. And maybe I should leave well enough alone, but my attitude lately has been potentially problematic for myself, and it makes me think and wonder what on earth I'm doing with myself.
I'm glad you've moved on to seeing someone. In fact, I'm very happy for you. I do miss you, and I hope you know that. I hope you know that I don't hate you, that I'm not upset at you. I also hope you know that I don't consider our time together as wasted. I in fact learned a lot from you. I try to use what I learned from you too, and try not to waste the knowledge I now have. It's not easy though.
I said and did a lot of things during our time together that I'm not proud of. Most of what I said, I didn't mean, and I know that's hard to believe, and you don't have to, obviously. It's your choice, you may never read this, which is fine too, but these words I need to express somehow. Like when I told you that you can't sing. I can honestly say that the only reason I said that was to make you angry. I never really meant it. I knew you weren't warmed up, and I know it'd drive you crazy. I think I did it to sabotage what we had going for us. I've come to a final realization that I do sabotage all of my relationships at one point or another, and am currently trying to rectify that. It may not ever happen, but I'm hoping it will.
This is not a letter to beg you to come back, it's just an apology, and a hope that maybe someday we can be friends again. I know that what happened between us can never just disappear, I understand that, I accept that. But what I'm hoping is that we can put it behind us sometime in the future and move on from it to be friends again. I'd like that very much.
Sincerely,
~Jason~"
icanhasdrumrollplz
My reply:
Ive been going over in my head whether or not you are even worth responding to.
To be honest, i had been expecting something like this. I of course had already known how you make it a point to get ahold of your ex's on all of your old anniversaries, and being that it would have been three years (thank god i got out when i did,) i had braced myself for something.
A call from a dear friend alerted me to your 'letter' and, being curious, I read it.
And laughed.
Yes, you probably should have left well enough alone, your attitude has always been problematic for yourself, and to be truthful, you should have been thinking about what youre 'doing with yourself' for a long time now.
I do not care whether or not you hate me, or if you miss me, or if you are upset with me, or glad ive moved on. I do not care about what you 'learned' from me, or that your using that 'knowledge' to not fuck up whatever empty, manipulative 'relationship' you have now.
You speak of sabotaging what we had 'going for us,' which was nothing. To be blunt, I never saw the relationship going anywhere, and my adoration for your family was pretty much the only thing that kept me.
I was a replacement for karen, which you made apparent (toward the beginning of our relationship) every time you told me you were still in love with her, how if Arren hadn't been around when she was over, 'something' would have happened, and how if she called in the middle of the night wanting you back, you'd have been there in a heartbeat. The constant comparisons, and how you forbade my liking of certain things because it reminded you of her proves my point further.
I wont bring up the people you wanted. There were many, and you had me very well brainwashed to think i was just the jealous girlfriend, trying to ruin her mans fun. Then again, I should have known better when you were trying to get into the 15 year olds pants at my graduation party.
The brushwood medium warned me all too late about you, including a "whatever you do, do NOT get pregnant by this one!" Good advice, glad i followed it. Perhaps its a low blow, but seeing as you couldn't be bothered to take responsibility for the child you already had, i really couldn't have expected any more. Its a good thing Trojans work.
"This is not a letter to beg you to come back..." No shit idiot.
I learned alot too, and I will never ever ever EVER let myself become so controlled and brainwashed ever again.
I have no desire to be friends with you, and i dont care whether you want to be or not.
It was a waste.
It will disappear in time, but not soon enough.
Yes, Im cold. And i do not care.
You are hardly worth a reply, but i couldnt help it, I am a giant bitch.
:)
"This is to whomever it may concern, to tell the truth it's aimed at one person in particular. It is an apology. And maybe I should leave well enough alone, but my attitude lately has been potentially problematic for myself, and it makes me think and wonder what on earth I'm doing with myself.
I'm glad you've moved on to seeing someone. In fact, I'm very happy for you. I do miss you, and I hope you know that. I hope you know that I don't hate you, that I'm not upset at you. I also hope you know that I don't consider our time together as wasted. I in fact learned a lot from you. I try to use what I learned from you too, and try not to waste the knowledge I now have. It's not easy though.
I said and did a lot of things during our time together that I'm not proud of. Most of what I said, I didn't mean, and I know that's hard to believe, and you don't have to, obviously. It's your choice, you may never read this, which is fine too, but these words I need to express somehow. Like when I told you that you can't sing. I can honestly say that the only reason I said that was to make you angry. I never really meant it. I knew you weren't warmed up, and I know it'd drive you crazy. I think I did it to sabotage what we had going for us. I've come to a final realization that I do sabotage all of my relationships at one point or another, and am currently trying to rectify that. It may not ever happen, but I'm hoping it will.
This is not a letter to beg you to come back, it's just an apology, and a hope that maybe someday we can be friends again. I know that what happened between us can never just disappear, I understand that, I accept that. But what I'm hoping is that we can put it behind us sometime in the future and move on from it to be friends again. I'd like that very much.
Sincerely,
~Jason~"
icanhasdrumrollplz
My reply:
Ive been going over in my head whether or not you are even worth responding to.
To be honest, i had been expecting something like this. I of course had already known how you make it a point to get ahold of your ex's on all of your old anniversaries, and being that it would have been three years (thank god i got out when i did,) i had braced myself for something.
A call from a dear friend alerted me to your 'letter' and, being curious, I read it.
And laughed.
Yes, you probably should have left well enough alone, your attitude has always been problematic for yourself, and to be truthful, you should have been thinking about what youre 'doing with yourself' for a long time now.
I do not care whether or not you hate me, or if you miss me, or if you are upset with me, or glad ive moved on. I do not care about what you 'learned' from me, or that your using that 'knowledge' to not fuck up whatever empty, manipulative 'relationship' you have now.
You speak of sabotaging what we had 'going for us,' which was nothing. To be blunt, I never saw the relationship going anywhere, and my adoration for your family was pretty much the only thing that kept me.
I was a replacement for karen, which you made apparent (toward the beginning of our relationship) every time you told me you were still in love with her, how if Arren hadn't been around when she was over, 'something' would have happened, and how if she called in the middle of the night wanting you back, you'd have been there in a heartbeat. The constant comparisons, and how you forbade my liking of certain things because it reminded you of her proves my point further.
I wont bring up the people you wanted. There were many, and you had me very well brainwashed to think i was just the jealous girlfriend, trying to ruin her mans fun. Then again, I should have known better when you were trying to get into the 15 year olds pants at my graduation party.
The brushwood medium warned me all too late about you, including a "whatever you do, do NOT get pregnant by this one!" Good advice, glad i followed it. Perhaps its a low blow, but seeing as you couldn't be bothered to take responsibility for the child you already had, i really couldn't have expected any more. Its a good thing Trojans work.
"This is not a letter to beg you to come back..." No shit idiot.
I learned alot too, and I will never ever ever EVER let myself become so controlled and brainwashed ever again.
I have no desire to be friends with you, and i dont care whether you want to be or not.
It was a waste.
It will disappear in time, but not soon enough.
Yes, Im cold. And i do not care.
You are hardly worth a reply, but i couldnt help it, I am a giant bitch.
:)