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am i weird because it takes a lot for me to really like someone?
do i hold back too much? is it "not normal" that just because i broke up with someone i was with for such a long time i don't feel the need to go on a fucking spree and be with as many people as i can JUST BECAUSE? i don't think so. i think i've always been kind of reserved. it takes a lot of alcohol and just a lot in general to get me to make out or just share myself with someone in anyway. ugh, some of my friends think i just need to go out and fuck someone. I'm like, sex doesn't sound like a bad idea but it's not that easy for me!!! i'm not a social butterfly but it's something i'm working on and i'm making progress. i used to be a lot more shut off. but now i'm going out, conversing and even getting numbers. i don't know. i just think i'm going at my own pace that makes me feel comfortable and that's all that should matter. i'm doing ME. at the end of the day what works for my friends works for them and might not work for me. so i'm finding my own way to be.. so yeah. i just had to sort my thoughts on that subject out and i think i'm good now.
i just wish i could just meet someone new.
someone refreshing. someone awesome.
i know he/she is out there.
i'm probably not ready that's why the universe hasn't put us together yet.
and when i am, we will meet and be beautiful together <3 can't wait.
do i hold back too much? is it "not normal" that just because i broke up with someone i was with for such a long time i don't feel the need to go on a fucking spree and be with as many people as i can JUST BECAUSE? i don't think so. i think i've always been kind of reserved. it takes a lot of alcohol and just a lot in general to get me to make out or just share myself with someone in anyway. ugh, some of my friends think i just need to go out and fuck someone. I'm like, sex doesn't sound like a bad idea but it's not that easy for me!!! i'm not a social butterfly but it's something i'm working on and i'm making progress. i used to be a lot more shut off. but now i'm going out, conversing and even getting numbers. i don't know. i just think i'm going at my own pace that makes me feel comfortable and that's all that should matter. i'm doing ME. at the end of the day what works for my friends works for them and might not work for me. so i'm finding my own way to be.. so yeah. i just had to sort my thoughts on that subject out and i think i'm good now.
i just wish i could just meet someone new.
someone refreshing. someone awesome.
i know he/she is out there.
i'm probably not ready that's why the universe hasn't put us together yet.
and when i am, we will meet and be beautiful together <3 can't wait.