(no subject)
Today it is raining. I have strep throat. Suck! Ha. Oh well, it doesn't matter too much. I feel bad because I've had to miss two days of work (if not more!). I know I haven't actually posted in a long time. I guess I just haven't felt like I've had much to say--or maybe it's that I have too much to say. That can be hard to sift through.
I think that this may be a theme in my posts. But here is a brief thought. I've really felt like I don't have anything to offer anybody. I thought that as things are moving on in my life that feeling would go away. But it hasn't. It leaves me feeling...debilitated. I keep trying to achieve this point where I can say, "There you were, Caitlin. How does it feel to be back?" But maybe I'm not supposed to be "back." Maybe there is something more? And I think that would be the best. Definately. God works out all things for the good of those who love him. So that's cool. And I'm totally down with that. But I'm swimming in a really empty ocean and my legs are getting tired of treading.
God, you are my rock. Thank you. Thank you for seeing me in my situation. I'm sorry for not always seeing what you have for me, and being overwhelmed by my own situation. But, God, I know you are faithful even when I have lost hope. Teach me, Lord. Teach me to love you more and to know you more. I want to experience you. I don't want to lose sight of you. I love you so much--but I know I am imperfect in a big way. Make me in to the image of your son...of you.
Caitlin
I think that this may be a theme in my posts. But here is a brief thought. I've really felt like I don't have anything to offer anybody. I thought that as things are moving on in my life that feeling would go away. But it hasn't. It leaves me feeling...debilitated. I keep trying to achieve this point where I can say, "There you were, Caitlin. How does it feel to be back?" But maybe I'm not supposed to be "back." Maybe there is something more? And I think that would be the best. Definately. God works out all things for the good of those who love him. So that's cool. And I'm totally down with that. But I'm swimming in a really empty ocean and my legs are getting tired of treading.
God, you are my rock. Thank you. Thank you for seeing me in my situation. I'm sorry for not always seeing what you have for me, and being overwhelmed by my own situation. But, God, I know you are faithful even when I have lost hope. Teach me, Lord. Teach me to love you more and to know you more. I want to experience you. I don't want to lose sight of you. I love you so much--but I know I am imperfect in a big way. Make me in to the image of your son...of you.
Caitlin