Love.
God, please take away my shallow, selfish ambitions. Make every day real. Call me up and out.
I have recently felt frustrated. I feel like such a nonentity. Like, I have no idea where I'm going and it's so maddening. And I don't want to exist as this lump who lacks personality and passion, but some days I just get into these wierd modes where it is so hard to pull myself out of it. And I just want somebody to validate me, however this is usually never the case because A)it's unnecessary to be validated by another person and B)rarely do people stop running their mouths to encourage or say a kind word. And how sad is it that I start expecting hope to come from another? I know it only comes from God, but I figure if it can be tangeable for a moment and exist where I can hear and see and touch it, than it must be real. I'm such a broken record, I need to get...it...together.
God thank you for loving me even though I don't get it a lot of the time. But please continue to humble me and teach me your love. Daddy, it really is all I need...and I'm so grateful that I always have it. Yeah. God, just humble me so that I can receive your reality. Thank you that you are changing things and always working. Give me patience with myself and others so I may be an encouragement instead of a hinderance. Thank you.
Love,
Caitlin
I have recently felt frustrated. I feel like such a nonentity. Like, I have no idea where I'm going and it's so maddening. And I don't want to exist as this lump who lacks personality and passion, but some days I just get into these wierd modes where it is so hard to pull myself out of it. And I just want somebody to validate me, however this is usually never the case because A)it's unnecessary to be validated by another person and B)rarely do people stop running their mouths to encourage or say a kind word. And how sad is it that I start expecting hope to come from another? I know it only comes from God, but I figure if it can be tangeable for a moment and exist where I can hear and see and touch it, than it must be real. I'm such a broken record, I need to get...it...together.
God thank you for loving me even though I don't get it a lot of the time. But please continue to humble me and teach me your love. Daddy, it really is all I need...and I'm so grateful that I always have it. Yeah. God, just humble me so that I can receive your reality. Thank you that you are changing things and always working. Give me patience with myself and others so I may be an encouragement instead of a hinderance. Thank you.
Love,
Caitlin