The Fucked Days of Xmas
1. Cuz my mom is dying, we are not doing Xmas this year. See, there are silver linings in the clouds of despair. Yes, I am pretty fucked up and twisted. Gotta keep the humor....
2. My siblings and I ended up hiring a home health care worker. She rocks and I love her. It has given my sis and I three days of rest from being on Mom-Duty. It don't come cheap, but it's worth it.
3. My mom keeps saying things like, "I didn't think this would last that long," and "I am going to hold out until David (my bro) comes back," I know she's bummed to be dying, but I think she may be ready to go. On come level, I am ready for her to go, too. It's so fucked up to have this long, drawn out death. I hope I go fast when it's my time.
4. I have been drinking a lot. That might not mean much, cuz I rarely drink (maybe 1-2x per month), but I have had a alcohol buzz on for at least 4 of the last 7 days of this last week. To me, that's alot. On the flip side, I am hardly smoking any weed.
5. I had voice mail sex again on That Man's voice mail. God, it's so hot since I feel like I have an "outlet" for my desire without having to get complicated. We are still not physical, but we have been having fun with words. I felt inspired after a night of raunchy conversation and a few beers to leave come "oh's!" on his voice mail. I was still pretty horny afterward and thought of calling The Single Dad and doing it to his voicemail, but I think he would kinda freak about that.
6. Speaking of...I gave a bootie call to The SIngle Dad the other night. I asked him to come out to hear music and hang out with me. He declined, I think he may have lost his interest. Oh well, his loss...
2. My siblings and I ended up hiring a home health care worker. She rocks and I love her. It has given my sis and I three days of rest from being on Mom-Duty. It don't come cheap, but it's worth it.
3. My mom keeps saying things like, "I didn't think this would last that long," and "I am going to hold out until David (my bro) comes back," I know she's bummed to be dying, but I think she may be ready to go. On come level, I am ready for her to go, too. It's so fucked up to have this long, drawn out death. I hope I go fast when it's my time.
4. I have been drinking a lot. That might not mean much, cuz I rarely drink (maybe 1-2x per month), but I have had a alcohol buzz on for at least 4 of the last 7 days of this last week. To me, that's alot. On the flip side, I am hardly smoking any weed.
5. I had voice mail sex again on That Man's voice mail. God, it's so hot since I feel like I have an "outlet" for my desire without having to get complicated. We are still not physical, but we have been having fun with words. I felt inspired after a night of raunchy conversation and a few beers to leave come "oh's!" on his voice mail. I was still pretty horny afterward and thought of calling The Single Dad and doing it to his voicemail, but I think he would kinda freak about that.
6. Speaking of...I gave a bootie call to The SIngle Dad the other night. I asked him to come out to hear music and hang out with me. He declined, I think he may have lost his interest. Oh well, his loss...