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Jul 17, 2017 01:17

Look.
I'm not going to just disappear when it's convenient for you.

I have said in the past, that women are treated like tissue.
Used for a time, made to feel "a part of" when it's convenient, but expendable when it comes to choosing between keeping them around, or keeping around the male friend and just letting [next female, equally tissue] fill the void the other one left behind.
With the old being pushed to the side, because now it's awkward, right?
"Old Female, you're through, please just disappear."
Well, I don't. Petty bitches come and go, but I aim for more than fleeting connections.

I am tired of being discarded and estranged just to assuage other people's insecurities.
You don't get to treat me like shit just because you don't know how to be mature.
You don't get to force me to apologize for existing, as myself, in the same realm as you.
Just because you want the upper hand. Just because you want to force me out.
Just because maybe if you make me look like the bad guy, I'll disappear.
You won't push me away from friends just because you don't know how to be around someone else confident, sexy, and capable.
Despite the fact that I'm not even a hint of an actual threat. I'm taken. I'm happy. That isn't changing.
It's simply your nagging insecurity that, because of your refusal to face, is turning you into a piss poor human.
And the real friends aren't going anywhere.

Men are complicated to be friends with. Women are bitches to be friends with.
I'm friends with both, but 90% of the time, it's the same stupid games.
Men occasionally get feelings, but usually are just...okay. Especially the taken ones. Human beings sharing human camaraderie.
But even when they don't, so many women still perceive a threat, and play their destructive, petty games to try and "win."
Not even realizing what the competition is fuelled by: Their own jealousies and insecurities.
If you're that worried about your partner looking elsewhere, if you feel like you can't trust your partner around other women, maybe it's your own relationship you need to be looking at, not my simple presence in your partner's life.
Because I promise you: the partnership, the sex, the relationship, the best friend that I've got, is 10x better than yours,
And I'm not even looking twice.
This, ladies, is all about you and your inability to face your own feelings of inadequacy.

And I am tired of bowing to your bullshit. I am tired of being a pushover for the sake of avoiding conflict and preserving peace.
I am tired of being pliable while others throw their fit. I am tired of making everyone comfortable.
I am tired of finding something to apologize for. I am tired of "being cool."
I'm fucking mad. I have been forcibly shoved out of enough friend groups, I have had enough wedges attempted to be driven between connections, I have had enough "awkward situations" created for the sake of your ridiculous games, I have bowed to enough bitches in my face treating me like trash because of their misplaced insecurity. And I have had enough.

The next bitch that decides to play isn't getting the soft pushover: we're playing fucking hardball now.
My dignity means more to me than catering to your weaknesses, and my friendships are worth fighting for.
And if it goes up in smoke, obviously it wasn't worth keeping in the first place.

Good riddance. I don't want you wasting my time if you don't want to be a part of my life.

Next time, it won't be tears and "I'm sorry." It won't be me bowing to you.
Press me, and I will fucking fight you.
You, petty and insecure,
Glass castle waiting to fall,
Tissue after tissue, will bow to me.
And then you will know exactly why you ever felt my presence threatening.

I have had enough.
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