cupboard doors that are 1 inch off

Oct 26, 2005 23:47

I am subtly anxious tonight
like there's too much going on
in my head
and I can't find
the pressure valve
to let some of it out
\
I was fixated on finishing the cupboard
at least to the point
that I have to work on it
and I feel like I threw down my hammer
and opened a tiny chasm
between us
you were just being playful
I was being sensitive
grow a thicker skin maybe...
I think though
that I don't want a thick skin

I feel a little overwhelmed
a little scared
a little worried
maybe I'm not used to actually stating how I feel
in the moment
and being heard
in the moment
without an argument
without apologizing
you scare me a little
who I am with you
scares me a little
I'm trying to breathe through the being afraid
and be with it
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