And somehow I met a man who, although being raised in a very traditional (though very accepting) family and not really having any conscious understanding of the varieties of gender and such, has always been more than willing to accept the parts of me I do not feel like being feminine about... he is perfectly content with my complete disregard for body hair; he cheerfully shaves my head for me and then rubs my buzz-cut because he likes it. When I wanted to learn to target-shoot he thought it was great, and there's never been a time he wouldn't take me out in the woods with him to stomp through the mud and get filthy and look at dead animals and beaver dams and such.
I think that's why me wearing dresses is actually sort of kink for us, as normal as it might be for most people... I feel strange in a dress, but not in a bad way. It brings out the feminine in me, behavior-wise and in my head, and for him it's clearly a turn-on, but he's never in any way seemed turned OFF by me the rest of the time... and part of that might be that I am very definitely a woman both physically and mentally, and so I'm happy for him to appreciate my body and appreciate me as a woman without expecting me to do "womanly" things like shave my legs regularly. I like being pretty, but I like being pretty without being "cute". I hate the word "cute" and I like being pretty in what feels like... well, not an aggressive way, but maybe more of a "this is how I do pretty" and wearing makeup always feels weirdly subversive for me, even though it's the opposite of subversive for a straight cis female to wear makeup.
I think that's why me wearing dresses is actually sort of kink for us, as normal as it might be for most people... I feel strange in a dress, but not in a bad way. It brings out the feminine in me, behavior-wise and in my head, and for him it's clearly a turn-on, but he's never in any way seemed turned OFF by me the rest of the time... and part of that might be that I am very definitely a woman both physically and mentally, and so I'm happy for him to appreciate my body and appreciate me as a woman without expecting me to do "womanly" things like shave my legs regularly. I like being pretty, but I like being pretty without being "cute". I hate the word "cute" and I like being pretty in what feels like... well, not an aggressive way, but maybe more of a "this is how I do pretty" and wearing makeup always feels weirdly subversive for me, even though it's the opposite of subversive for a straight cis female to wear makeup.
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That makes total sense to me.
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