last night
so last night i went to the free trapt concert. it was so cool cuz it was inside a little club, and there was barely anyoen there! and it was free! plus there was two really good opening bands. dropping daylight and hailstorm. i liked droppign daylight a lot and bought one of there ep's. then trapt came on. and as soon as they played their first not i realized the really weird coincedince of the situation. last year i think idk but when sam broke up with me all i could listen to was TRAPT! they helped me so much. and the day after monika breaks up with me, i hear their having a free concert! and i go! and there was barely anyoen there! and they played fuckign amazingly! and their coming out with a new cd. idk i think thats kind of weird. well, i know who im going to listen too everytime someone and i break up. i dont think i have to worry about that tho cuz i dont think ill have a gf again. it never works out. they like me, then they get sick of me. its like Bobby says "girls suck, too bad being gay is gross." sigh. so yesterday was my pissed and think about the break up situation day. todays my calm sad day where im just like. its really over. sigh. well im going to talk to her today or tonight idk. last night i called her during headstrong she iddnt pick up so i called angie cuz i knew she wa with her. then monika called when i was on the train. it was..............nice. she was nice i was nice. then i sent her a text that sed goodnight and stuff, then she sent me one that sed goodnight MUAH! idk if i like that. u just broke up with me and ur sending me kisses. i know its only simple english charcters sent over by a telephone service, but idk. thats kinda like teasing. i mean i did send her a nice message i sed goodnight make sure u make sometime for us tommorow and u can call me about anything anytime. idk i think im making a big deal about nothing. i just thot it was a lil bit weird. i hope...... she doesnt like change her mind. cuz i prolly would take her back. i guess thats not too bad. i am a second chance kind of guy. so ya i guess i would if she wnated to. idk why she would but ya. after that i wouldnt. but thats somehting i dont have to think about cuz its not going to happen. soooo yah. i love trapt. oh and linkin park, cuz pushing me away. member when i said she literally was pushing me away at school. ya that song kinda gets me a little upset about it. so i listen to it, idk y. lol. oh well im def getting better tho. i kinda cnat wait for our talk i just want to get everything straightened out and stuff. cuz i dotn wnat to go to school and not have seen or talked to her then when i see her just be like ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. you know? ok well goodbye.