i just want to drink myself into a coma. there is not a single thing that could make me happy. friends,money, sucess. nothing

everything is changing. constantly i feel like the second i think theres a calm things fire up again. i've been thinking about you alot latley. i don't know why. i mostly choose not too. probably because you are an asshole. and assholes leave lasting impressions. i just wish my mom would be better so i can be done with all of this. it's annoying. i ( Read more... )

seriously can i be anymore pathetic? people are such bullshit. everywhere i look. bullshit bullshit bullshit. is there any morals anymore?

blah. i'm gonna be up all night.

wow i feel like i'm gonna throw up ... my head is spinning with thoughts... funny. i only write in this thing when i'm depressed. i'm not really a sad person... i'm only sad when i think way too hard about my future. or about bad things from my past. you know it's like you keep on trying to shove them back there. but somehow they get up and say.. " ( Read more... )

i feel like im losing my mind a little today. i dunno just sometimes you see your life in a different light on certain days. today is just not my light. i don't know what i feel for who or what and my mind is playing games.

dude i just want to escape. quit my job move start the fuck over. problem with that you can never escape you just start more problems. i hate working in 90 degree heat. though i suppose it's better than 25 degrees

i was in old navy today and out of no where i totally felt sick .. my eyes got all watery and my thorat tightened up. it prolly cause my birthday is in 2 days. i'm usually sick for holidays and bdays. but it's kool i took an airborne. i can't believe i'm going to be 22 already. it seems like yesterday i was 18. crazy. i've been thinking about my ( Read more... )

man everything sucks lately...well my job has been steady so that s good but it seems like anytime i get say? 500 bucks ahead? it's swiped out from under me... do i buy clothes? shoes? no nothing. bills and i don't even have my own place!!!i swear. i don't know how anyone stays up these days. my friends are gone. or at least it feels like it. and ( Read more... )

dude this journal sucks. i still have it.. it's funny. i just read an entry from my junoir year in high school. haha great.