what the fuck eh?
man everything sucks lately...well my job has been steady so that s good but it seems like anytime i get say? 500 bucks ahead? it's swiped out from under me... do i buy clothes? shoes? no nothing. bills and i don't even have my own place!!!i swear. i don't know how anyone stays up these days. my friends are gone. or at least it feels like it. and my dreams are cloudy, of course i know what i want but the path is so confusing. i spend everyday with my boyfriend. but his friends are around every corner calling every second. he hangs out with them whenever i work late and whenever i just cant be there and then when i get time they still win. tonite i wanted to hang and he kept coming up with excuses about how he needed to be with just them , it's gotten to the point where i know he keeps a set of friends away from me prolly just to talk shit and get it all out. cause if we happen to go somewhere for a while i don't want to be he gets mad cause i say i'd rather leave. i suppose i just better get into a groove for me and be with people i used to but who? everyone i used to know has stuff going on i don't know about it's just not the same. or maybe i'm too self concious? i don't know what i am. ahh fuck too much thinking time to have a drinkee