Confusion
Things are so confusing right now. It seems like every time I turn around things keep getting worse. I don't have any access to Ty's money at all now because he decided to open a new account with the Navy Credit Union. He did not put my name on the account. I only found out because they sent the paper work to our house.
While looking for his divorce papers to see what exactly his responsibilities are with Isaac, I found all his tax papers that he was supposed to have taken care of two years ago. All thats done now is basically gone from $318 owed in 2003 to $1608 due as of July 6, 2007 plus any interest and penalties applied since then. That's not even including the taxes he never filed in 2001, 2002, 2004, & 2005. It's ridiculous. Hopefully, he will sign the Power of attorney so I can take care of this.
Everything seems to be adding up to the fact that he knew all of this was about to go down and just ran away & dumped it on me to take care of. Which is the frustrating part because I cant take of the Child Support that is $11347 back due. I cant take care of the taxes that I wasn't even with him when he incurred those. I cant fix the bank lien without him as he needs to talk to the bank, I cant close that account to keep it from affecting my credit as I am not primary on the account.
He left me in this huge mess and I still haven't heard from him to have any sort of an explanation of what the hell he was thinking. Divorce and Annulment are words that keep swirling around my mind. I love him and miss him so much. I actually enjoy being around his child, Isaac. I feel like I should trust him but I don't know if that's me being naive. I hurt so much and I cry a lot. I'm having trouble sleeping. And he's only been gone a week and 2 days. Of course all this shit has gone down in a week and 2 days. I cant wait to see what else comes up in the next 8 weeks.
On one hand,if I don't get divorced or annul my marriage, at least I still have prospects. I was asked out by one of my customers this afternoon. He thinks we have a "thing" between the two of us. I'm not sure what this thing is but apparently there are other people who have noticed it. I'm thinking he's discussed it with his friends who are reading way to much into my being friendly in a business setting. He is a nice guy and seems very sweet but I have this thing where I don't date my customers. It's bad for business if the relationship goes sour. Plus I'm married and all.
I also made Ty's life at Boot Camp much worse and way more difficult. He sent me a half-assed letter (nine sentences if you can really call that a letter). I got it on Wednesday. In it he told me to spit on Pat (his recruiter) the next time I saw. Thursday I took some oatmeal raisin cookies to the recruiters. I told Pat about the letter. Pat is also 5 ranks above Ty. You do not threaten to spit on your superiors with out consequences. Pat said he was going to call that RDCs out in Great Lakes to find out who was in charge of Ty's division to have them give him extra hell from Pat & I. Pat said Ty was lucky that Pat wont be in Michigan by the time Ty gets back (May-ish). He'd beat Ty's ass for the trouble he's putting me through.
It's been a very confusing week. At one moment I really miss Ty & at the next I hate him so much. It's a roller coaster of emotions and I'm not handling it very well. Isaac & I wrote to Ty tonight & I started crying. I think I worried Isaac quite a bit. He looked as if he was going to cry too. I think Ty will really appreciate a letter from his son. I have trouble sleeping now too. I have been to bed before 12:30 am all week. Most nights I am up until 1 am. It's starting to take a toll on me physically and mentally. I fell like I'm bipolar a lot. My emotions just switch so rapidly and without warning. If you cant tell by my above writing being so disjointed and all over the place, my mental state is completely rushed and I go off on tangents. I constantly tired. I worry a lot about bills and money and things I cant control, like Ty being sent to war. I think about the fact that he may be doing this to leave me. Although his letter indicated that he thinks he'll be a better husband because of this. I dont know if I can trust him. That worries me the most especially since he'll be at sea for 6 months out of the year. I feel rage a lot. I wonder how he could do this to me. I'm supposed to be the one he promised to love forever & promised to take care of and cherish. His actions right now do not me feel like that. I have a lot of pain and trust issues as it was. This is making things worse.
One bright spot is that my parents are taking me out of town for a few days next week. I think they realize how stressful this is for me. I really need some R& R. I'll be visiting some friends & family. I'm quite excited. Especially since they are paying for everything. :) That helps things. I had to cancel my Miami trip due to the dire financial situation. I really wanted to go with Maggie and have a lot of fun. I felt really bad canceling on her like I had to but I'm glad she understood.
I'm so glad I have very good friends who let me talk and just listen for a while. They also help me plot the murder of my husband though we all know that this is just fantasy. Honestly, if I was able to pull this off while he was in boot camp I would have to be like Jennifer Garner from Alias. I mean he's being watched 24/7 and it's a military recruiting camp. I wouldn't even get on the ground without being like a super spy. LOL. Plus I'd have to go on the lam afterwards. That's really not my type of lifestyle.
I did find out Ty's graduation date. March 7th. That's when I get to tell him what a dumb ass he is and kick the shit out of him. I guess it's a good thing I had to cancel my Miami trip. That would have interfered with Ty's ass kicking since I wouldn't be flying back until late evening on the 7th.
I really wish I could just hear from him. I haven't gotten any type of phone call from him. I havent gotten a real letter explaining any thing. I did get his clothes back on Monday. I have been sleeping in them ever since. It makes me feel comforted and loved. I like the fact that they still smell like him. It makes me feel closer to him even if he is over 400 miles away form me. I really miss him & I have no idea what I'm going to do.
While looking for his divorce papers to see what exactly his responsibilities are with Isaac, I found all his tax papers that he was supposed to have taken care of two years ago. All thats done now is basically gone from $318 owed in 2003 to $1608 due as of July 6, 2007 plus any interest and penalties applied since then. That's not even including the taxes he never filed in 2001, 2002, 2004, & 2005. It's ridiculous. Hopefully, he will sign the Power of attorney so I can take care of this.
Everything seems to be adding up to the fact that he knew all of this was about to go down and just ran away & dumped it on me to take care of. Which is the frustrating part because I cant take of the Child Support that is $11347 back due. I cant take care of the taxes that I wasn't even with him when he incurred those. I cant fix the bank lien without him as he needs to talk to the bank, I cant close that account to keep it from affecting my credit as I am not primary on the account.
He left me in this huge mess and I still haven't heard from him to have any sort of an explanation of what the hell he was thinking. Divorce and Annulment are words that keep swirling around my mind. I love him and miss him so much. I actually enjoy being around his child, Isaac. I feel like I should trust him but I don't know if that's me being naive. I hurt so much and I cry a lot. I'm having trouble sleeping. And he's only been gone a week and 2 days. Of course all this shit has gone down in a week and 2 days. I cant wait to see what else comes up in the next 8 weeks.
On one hand,if I don't get divorced or annul my marriage, at least I still have prospects. I was asked out by one of my customers this afternoon. He thinks we have a "thing" between the two of us. I'm not sure what this thing is but apparently there are other people who have noticed it. I'm thinking he's discussed it with his friends who are reading way to much into my being friendly in a business setting. He is a nice guy and seems very sweet but I have this thing where I don't date my customers. It's bad for business if the relationship goes sour. Plus I'm married and all.
I also made Ty's life at Boot Camp much worse and way more difficult. He sent me a half-assed letter (nine sentences if you can really call that a letter). I got it on Wednesday. In it he told me to spit on Pat (his recruiter) the next time I saw. Thursday I took some oatmeal raisin cookies to the recruiters. I told Pat about the letter. Pat is also 5 ranks above Ty. You do not threaten to spit on your superiors with out consequences. Pat said he was going to call that RDCs out in Great Lakes to find out who was in charge of Ty's division to have them give him extra hell from Pat & I. Pat said Ty was lucky that Pat wont be in Michigan by the time Ty gets back (May-ish). He'd beat Ty's ass for the trouble he's putting me through.
It's been a very confusing week. At one moment I really miss Ty & at the next I hate him so much. It's a roller coaster of emotions and I'm not handling it very well. Isaac & I wrote to Ty tonight & I started crying. I think I worried Isaac quite a bit. He looked as if he was going to cry too. I think Ty will really appreciate a letter from his son. I have trouble sleeping now too. I have been to bed before 12:30 am all week. Most nights I am up until 1 am. It's starting to take a toll on me physically and mentally. I fell like I'm bipolar a lot. My emotions just switch so rapidly and without warning. If you cant tell by my above writing being so disjointed and all over the place, my mental state is completely rushed and I go off on tangents. I constantly tired. I worry a lot about bills and money and things I cant control, like Ty being sent to war. I think about the fact that he may be doing this to leave me. Although his letter indicated that he thinks he'll be a better husband because of this. I dont know if I can trust him. That worries me the most especially since he'll be at sea for 6 months out of the year. I feel rage a lot. I wonder how he could do this to me. I'm supposed to be the one he promised to love forever & promised to take care of and cherish. His actions right now do not me feel like that. I have a lot of pain and trust issues as it was. This is making things worse.
One bright spot is that my parents are taking me out of town for a few days next week. I think they realize how stressful this is for me. I really need some R& R. I'll be visiting some friends & family. I'm quite excited. Especially since they are paying for everything. :) That helps things. I had to cancel my Miami trip due to the dire financial situation. I really wanted to go with Maggie and have a lot of fun. I felt really bad canceling on her like I had to but I'm glad she understood.
I'm so glad I have very good friends who let me talk and just listen for a while. They also help me plot the murder of my husband though we all know that this is just fantasy. Honestly, if I was able to pull this off while he was in boot camp I would have to be like Jennifer Garner from Alias. I mean he's being watched 24/7 and it's a military recruiting camp. I wouldn't even get on the ground without being like a super spy. LOL. Plus I'd have to go on the lam afterwards. That's really not my type of lifestyle.
I did find out Ty's graduation date. March 7th. That's when I get to tell him what a dumb ass he is and kick the shit out of him. I guess it's a good thing I had to cancel my Miami trip. That would have interfered with Ty's ass kicking since I wouldn't be flying back until late evening on the 7th.
I really wish I could just hear from him. I haven't gotten any type of phone call from him. I havent gotten a real letter explaining any thing. I did get his clothes back on Monday. I have been sleeping in them ever since. It makes me feel comforted and loved. I like the fact that they still smell like him. It makes me feel closer to him even if he is over 400 miles away form me. I really miss him & I have no idea what I'm going to do.