last day of school, so to speak.
Okay, so today was the last official day of classes. It's was strange for me because everybody was pretty breezy about it and like "see ya next year" and I'm all like. No i wont
IB i got in, great googles why did I apply? It was because my friends didn't I could do it, and at the time I was so sick of everybody around, FAKE FAKE ass bitches.
But now I guess things have calmed, i can clearly make the distinction between who are my friends, and who are just there. There's too many in the second group. I'm trying to be positive about the fact that I'm starting over, but it's really really difficult when you've worked so hard to get what you have. It always happens. My parents are the most spastic movers ever, I've lived in more places than I could count and I've in Vancouver the longest I've lived ANYWHERE. I've lived here for two and a half years.
So what now?/ I start all over again or something?? I'm so sick of doing that. Totally new high school, totally new friendships, totally new scenery. I have this one friend of mine who applied also, got in and is going with me. When she was applying, me and her were really good friends. We did sports together, stayed after school and did PEP -_- But then that was before I found out how good of a liar she is, and I can't take anything she says at face value anymore. I just give up, it doesn't matter about her. She and I have nothing to do with each other really anymore from this point on, I don't care if location forces us together. It's too much effort to keep our friendship running.
(I'm seriously gonna bawl or something, because she could have been my best friend, but she wont get the chance to anymore.)
I said goodbye to my Ex today. I mean we see each other everyday at school, do more physical contact that what should appropriate for ex boyfriend and girlfriends and playfully mock each other. But no matter how many feelings I still have for him, I know that it wouldn't really work anymore, unless of course i say "sorry I was such a bitch the last time we tried it out, but I was just so scared of being in a real relationship and I didn't think you would like me anymore if I showed you who I really was." hmm We don't really have an excuse to be hanging out over the summer or anything. He says that he would teach me how to cook and stuff, but I know that would be BEYOND awkward, so i declined very graciously.
Erg, what a day.
IB i got in, great googles why did I apply? It was because my friends didn't I could do it, and at the time I was so sick of everybody around, FAKE FAKE ass bitches.
But now I guess things have calmed, i can clearly make the distinction between who are my friends, and who are just there. There's too many in the second group. I'm trying to be positive about the fact that I'm starting over, but it's really really difficult when you've worked so hard to get what you have. It always happens. My parents are the most spastic movers ever, I've lived in more places than I could count and I've in Vancouver the longest I've lived ANYWHERE. I've lived here for two and a half years.
So what now?/ I start all over again or something?? I'm so sick of doing that. Totally new high school, totally new friendships, totally new scenery. I have this one friend of mine who applied also, got in and is going with me. When she was applying, me and her were really good friends. We did sports together, stayed after school and did PEP -_- But then that was before I found out how good of a liar she is, and I can't take anything she says at face value anymore. I just give up, it doesn't matter about her. She and I have nothing to do with each other really anymore from this point on, I don't care if location forces us together. It's too much effort to keep our friendship running.
(I'm seriously gonna bawl or something, because she could have been my best friend, but she wont get the chance to anymore.)
I said goodbye to my Ex today. I mean we see each other everyday at school, do more physical contact that what should appropriate for ex boyfriend and girlfriends and playfully mock each other. But no matter how many feelings I still have for him, I know that it wouldn't really work anymore, unless of course i say "sorry I was such a bitch the last time we tried it out, but I was just so scared of being in a real relationship and I didn't think you would like me anymore if I showed you who I really was." hmm We don't really have an excuse to be hanging out over the summer or anything. He says that he would teach me how to cook and stuff, but I know that would be BEYOND awkward, so i declined very graciously.
Erg, what a day.