To Ethan ( Read more... )

So Grace manipulates me into thinking she is actually going to leave Ethan in Kenya (she did the same to him) He cried and begged to go home and that he would be better (she says) and if he acts up she will just send him to her parents in Kenya to public school. Then she says oh let's get together next week and talk about him.. a month later and ( Read more... )

Ethan doesn't talk to me at all anymore. He just stopped coming over. In 10 days Myka would have been 4. I wish I could die and give whatever life energy I had left over to a sick kid to heal them. So fucking depressed. I don't want this life.

Seriously children!! He behaves completely half assed when asked to do ANYTHING that pertains to cleaning up after himself. When I tell him he doesn't clean up after himself and then I have to do it he is like, "Well then tell me and I will clean it up ( Read more... )

Just realized October 24th 2014 I lost Ethan and October 28th this year I lost my little girl. I got Ethan back but I will never get her back.

That moment you are playing card with your nine your old son and Eve/Gwen Stefani - Let Me Blow Ya Mind starts to play on the playlist.. I immediately jump up and skip it while he complains because the beginning sounded cool. I explained it had bad language so he can't listen to it and then he was like "Didn't you know you were going to have a kid ( Read more... )

Ethan is so cute. He walked up the stairs to go to bed and he was like "Ah home!" lol He loves coming over because he gets to spend time with me and I do the whole bedtime routine where we read a book together. Love my little man ( Read more... )

Ethan told me before bed he likes when I put him to bed and snuggle with him because it makes him feel safe and that I take good care of him. And he told me he loves me and I'm beautiful and not to change.. my style of hats LOL What a sweetie pie.

It's saturday and I have Ethan today and tomorrow. We celebrated his birthday today because it was on wednesday. We went to my cousin Sandy's place and he played with her boys. Jumped on the trampoline, went swimming and had DQ cake. He got a ton of pokemon cards cuz that's what he is into right now ( Read more... )

I finally figured it out. I should have sooner. It's not that I am not safe with Ethan or that Ethan isn't safe with me its that SHE isn't safe with us together because then I know too much about the inner workings of her "family" and the horrible stuff that they do. I know too much so that's WHY I have been excommunicated.