Forget yesterday...

[misssunshinebee]

So yeah, I'm extremely annoyed at myself today. Not only did I have an ANNOYING day at work, everything turns to shit when I get home. My computer breaks (more money, which I DON'T HAVE) and the kids are rambunctious and I end up losing it and yelling at them. On top of that, my parents are having issues. I don't know. I try my hardest, to please my mom, and she doesn't realize. So then... when I do stuff, and she still treats me like crap, I feel ultra guilty like I did something. Everytime I turn around, I feel like I did something wrong. No... I refuse to feel this way. I'm happier than I've been in ages, and yet everytime I turn around I feel like I shouldn't feel this way. Why is that? Can you not handle what I want? I'm not asking for the world. I'm not asking a lot. All I'm asking for is a little respect and dignity and for you to accept this. What do I need to do for you? WHAT?

*sighs* I need sleep. I hate this. I think I need to cry too. It is what it is.

Oh God, things feel so heavy. Please take them from my shoulders. I love You.

:.: Bee :.: