ugh i hate wiriting in this thing. Nothing new. its winter and im sick of cold ass bullshit. The one thing that made me write in here was that on an entry like from thanksgiving i got a comment on it. but i got the comment like 2 months later and they didnt tell me who they were and its driving me out of my mind. If you know who wrote it tell ( Read more... )

man last night was an awesome night. We went to a hotel party in wooddale. down side was it was ten bucks to get in but it was all you can drink. I dont know if any of you know what jungle juice is but ill explain it. A shit load of everclear, some sugar, and juice. It tastes nothing like booze, just candy. It hits you so hard and so fast ( Read more... )

I honestly wonder why people talk shit. Im no saint. ijust wonder. like does it make you feel good? powerfull? in control? Is it out of spite? Jelousy? i honestly wonder. It just makes me sad that someone i consider to be one of my closest friends, one of the only people that when i have a problem i can go to, the only friend i ever bought a ( Read more... )

people piss me off. I get in a car expecting to see a bunch of happy faces. instead i get yelled at for nothing. I supposedly hung out with heather maol behind lorens work (which i didnt know was wrong). The problem with this idea is that well i dont talk to her or ever see her. nor do i care about her. so why would i hang out with her. Then i ( Read more... )

Do you ever just feel left out? Like your there and everyone knows you, but they dont really care about you? Thats whats in my head today. I'm falling into something and turning into someone i hate. i haven't had a sober day in over a week and a half and im tired of what im turning into. So smoking is gone for sure for quite a while. And so ( Read more... )

A while back i used to hat how my life was a rut. I used to always want to switch things up. Well it did get out of the rut and every thing was different for a while. I met new people. got closer to some friends. some became more than friends. and now some are less than friends. but its just part of life. we all make choices and most we ( Read more... )

so im sitting here with this guy hooper. Hes not that bad once you get past all the std's. Hes kinds funny at times but i laugh a lot just to make him feel better. No i have a final in about 2 hours and im probably going to fail just like every other class which is no suprise to me seeing that i spent more time out of class doing illeagal things ( Read more... )

ok so im going to backtrack it a little bit. Saturday was one of the funnest nights i have had in a while. Nothing mattered and all went about as good as i could hope for. It started at the warp skate park to see a nifty band called std grabbag play. They were fourth out of five band and had played an awesome set. I think the crowd for them ( Read more... )

Tonight was a weird night and i hope it doesnt happen again. I think i saw a small line that is starting to divide the group once again and i dont like it. Its probably just me but i felt so used tonight by people and it really hurt. like i wonder if that is all i am to some people: just if you need something call mike he always does it. I ( Read more... )

i slept in late for class again showed up an hour late but got there in just enough time for him to give me my take home essay test. If i get a decent grade on this i might be able to pass with a c or even better but im realistic so a c would be nice. I wish i could say the same for my other classes. I am pretty sure i have adult add. either ( Read more... )