Oct 12, 2007 00:15
i am worn out ... i am tired of bars, gay culture, judgement, pain, and hurt...
so this week has been so long and tiring ... i feel drained to the core ... i have seen freinds lie to me ... attack me ... and just play fucking games ... i get blamed, threatened, and am just tored ... i refuse to take on anyones pain anymore ...
this week i think about it ... i have been sick, been to the emergency room, been hit and screamed at as if i was a bad person ... yet one thing that is amazing is the flip side ...
i met someone that is really knocking my socks off ... let me tell you about this guy ... he is sweet, caring, emotional, and seems to be in a good place in his life ... he has so far been here in so many ways i feel so touched and loved... i think i have found something good and i have no intention of letting go anytime soon ...
i have also never been scared but in a good way ... this man is gold ...
so depsite all the insanity the pain, the anger, the violence i am smitten and starting to fall for an amazing man ... he is showing me a new adventure and he cares and has an amzing way of helping me know ... that life is not worth giving up
so to chris i would like to dedicate this song to you ...
WHAT YOU LIKE
BY DARREN HAYES
I want to thank you my friend
For making me feel worthwhile
Sweeter than the honey of your lips and kindness in your smile
Hand in hand we float across the room
Explosions deep inside
Cheek to cheek, there's clouds under my feet
There's only you and I
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU LIKE
DOES THAT FEEL NICE /GIVE ME A SIGN
IF YOU LOVE IT I CAN DO IT AGAIN
WE'VE GOT THE REST OF THE NIGHT TO GET IT RIGHT
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU LIKE IF THAT FEELS NICE GIVE ME A SIGN
IF YOU LOVE IT I CAN DO IT AGAIN
WE'VE GOT THE REST OF OUR LIVES TO GET IT RIGHT
Lookin' back on lonely nights
Searching for love again
I never knew my journey began And ended with you my friend
Softer than your butterfly kisses
And stronger than my desire
I wanna thank you my friend For making me feel alive
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU LIKE...
I'll never mess it up again
Won't let it slip like grains of sand Through careless fingertips because
I'm a man who understands Though burned by the fire
I can learn to feel the light again and listen I can hear your defense
I know I can do it give me one more chance Baby here I am
PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU LIKE ...
hugs
M