i want to stop being pregnant michaela. and become mamma michaela. i'm ready for that. i'm ready to work on getting my figure back(although its really not too far gone...i'm only 127 lbs...) and i am so so ready to kiss my little girl. to see her beautiful face. her eyes especially. than her smile... and her nose. omg am i ready. i think the change ( Read more... )

i'm so sick of this depression. i don't get it. i feel so empty...but i don't think thats the right word... and i don't know if its just the seasonal crap i always get; or what. but i hate it alot. and this kid really doesn't have much more room inside me anymore. so i'm uncomfortable all the time. can't sleep. can't eat. can't stand or walk for ( Read more... )

i'm so ready for this baby to get here. i want to meet her. see her beautiful face,her smile, hear her noises, smell her(lol). and finally have some space again for all my organs!!!!lol ( Read more... )

...drugs that stop contractions.
...a healthy pregnancy.
...my family.
...the life we've made with each other.

so i don't know if i could be anymore content with life right now. things are so simple and happy and good. i don't have to deal with anyones bullshit anymore i can just relax and enjoy my beautiful apartment and be happy ( Read more... )

not being allowed to drink gets a lot more annoying as time goes on. dirty sob's.
but whatever this baby will be out by my next birthday... =)

so we move into our place on the 22nd! and i really really have to find a job asap. cus we are paying like 150 more than we planned.
but its going to work... its has too. omg i am so excited!!!

oh and feeling the baby move is amazing. though still it almost doesn't feel real. i don't know that it will until she is in my arms....

although complicated life could not be better right now.
even with cowardly ppl trying to bring me down.
i have the most amazing family, friends and boy right now.
it also doesn't hurt that i'm not so nauseated anymore.=)

so i didn't actually get to have an ultrasound i had to schedule that for later...=(
but she did do a real quick one so i could see and hear the heart beat. that was amazing...
i just can't wait for my real longer ultrasound... ha. it is more real now than it was before but still hard to realize yet...

i can't wait to feel this new life moving inside of me. because it still doesn't feel real... hopefully i get my first ultrasound this week!!!