ARG!
WTF. WHY AM I HERE? EVERYTIME SOMETHING THAT SEEMS GREAT STARTS HAPPENING IT DIES. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO RELATIONSHIPS. BUT I'M MORE PISSED OFF AT THE FACT THAT I LET A FAGGOT RUIN IT. OMG. I JUST WANT TO YELL OR CRY, BUT I CAN'T. ALL I CAN DO IS JUST GET MAD OR BE CALM. I'VE LOST EVERYTHING THAT I THOUGHT I HAD IN ONLY A HALF A YEAR. MY MOTHER IS BEING A PENIS, I'VE BEEN RAPED OUT OF MY FEELINGS, I don't even love myself. I hate myself like a son of a bitch. I hate this gift called "life". Why me? And after all this fighting, all these trials and ordeals I can't seem to have any peace. I can't cry, I can't feel remorse or something even close. I just get mad. That's all. Angry. Never sorrow or depression, just anger. I wish I was bipolar. So atleast I could feel sadness...This situation called life is a fuck up thing, and y'know what. Buying things doesn't help. All day I spoiled myself with the little money I had, and I still feel like scum. Sometimes I wish life was a simple thing for me, and that I'd instead be born with a simple mind. But things just get worse and worse. The little friends I have are slowly shrinking away, I wish I could be a coward and just kill myself. But I can't. I just have to see what life has in store for a piece of shit like myself........Abayo.....