Memories...
I haven't heard from Chris and I'm thankful, the drama was overwhelming. It's a shame we couldn't work out. I'm so attracted to him and he's got a great job but mentally, he's unstable. I know he biding his time until we can contact me again. I don't want it, as much as I miss cuddling and kissing him, the fun we had but that was all.
I still have dreams about Brian...last night I dreamed I came to his mom's house for dinner. She walked passed the door and smiled at me, then she had Jack by the scruff of his neck and went to throw him down the stairs. Suddenly Brian popped up in front of me with a bunch of tupperware and smiled. I woke up very quickly, it felt so real, I don't remember his voice, I don't remember his smell but I remember what he looks like. My heart still loves him even after all the bullshit he put me through. I wish he would just go away, I wish I could erase his memories. I don't want any of them!! I want my life and happiness back.
I still have dreams about Brian...last night I dreamed I came to his mom's house for dinner. She walked passed the door and smiled at me, then she had Jack by the scruff of his neck and went to throw him down the stairs. Suddenly Brian popped up in front of me with a bunch of tupperware and smiled. I woke up very quickly, it felt so real, I don't remember his voice, I don't remember his smell but I remember what he looks like. My heart still loves him even after all the bullshit he put me through. I wish he would just go away, I wish I could erase his memories. I don't want any of them!! I want my life and happiness back.