Concert Tickets
On Tuesday, Chris emailed me tickets to see the Nash Bash at the Barclay's center. Man I wish I could appreciate it, that's all I ever wanted Brian to do, surprise me and be thoughtful. I couldn't believe he spent money on me, we haven't spoke in a week. Following the tickets he emailed me, "I hope you find it in your heart to join me. I will be in my seat at 7PM."
Part of me wanted to go, but it would be for the wrong reasons. There is never an easy week with him, he is bipolar or has some kind of personality disordered that I cannot deal with for the rest of my life. I was lonely and heartbroken but I knew I had to be strong the way I was with Brian when I walked out the door and never looked back.
I emailed Chris back and told him I was working at the gym that night because I have parent teacher conference night on Thursday, my normal day and switched with someone. I asked him what it would take for him to understand that it's over between us?
He emailed me back that he was sorry I couldn't go and that he'll never give up, then he started saying things I've heard him say a million times before like "I know how to make you happy now and I will always be there, the one who loves you the most, I know I make mistakes and I'm not perfect...."
I replied that this is borderline harassment and I'd like him to stop contact me.
He said "You know it's not harassment, I just care about you and I'm saying sweet things."
I copy and pasted the definition of harassment.
He replied that he was not harassing me and he only wishes to let me know what I meant to him.
I said THIS IS OVER, THERE IS NO CHANCE! Please expend this energy on someone who will like it, someone who's first impression with their friends will be better than mine. I will be forced to block him from emailing me now.
He begged me not to block him, he wanted to know what I was so angry and was upset I unfriended him on facebook. He asked for me just to talk to him.
I never responded, I had no choice but to unfriend him, he would be stalking me and I'd just be worried about him stalking me and commenting on my posts.
I miss his smell, his adventurous side and his beautiful green eyes. I miss being held in his arms and kissed.
I don't miss the empty, pleasurable sex, it was like having sex with Brian, I got nothing out of it. He wouldn't take time to turn me on at all. I wish him happiness but I don't think he'll ever find it.
Part of me wanted to go, but it would be for the wrong reasons. There is never an easy week with him, he is bipolar or has some kind of personality disordered that I cannot deal with for the rest of my life. I was lonely and heartbroken but I knew I had to be strong the way I was with Brian when I walked out the door and never looked back.
I emailed Chris back and told him I was working at the gym that night because I have parent teacher conference night on Thursday, my normal day and switched with someone. I asked him what it would take for him to understand that it's over between us?
He emailed me back that he was sorry I couldn't go and that he'll never give up, then he started saying things I've heard him say a million times before like "I know how to make you happy now and I will always be there, the one who loves you the most, I know I make mistakes and I'm not perfect...."
I replied that this is borderline harassment and I'd like him to stop contact me.
He said "You know it's not harassment, I just care about you and I'm saying sweet things."
I copy and pasted the definition of harassment.
He replied that he was not harassing me and he only wishes to let me know what I meant to him.
I said THIS IS OVER, THERE IS NO CHANCE! Please expend this energy on someone who will like it, someone who's first impression with their friends will be better than mine. I will be forced to block him from emailing me now.
He begged me not to block him, he wanted to know what I was so angry and was upset I unfriended him on facebook. He asked for me just to talk to him.
I never responded, I had no choice but to unfriend him, he would be stalking me and I'd just be worried about him stalking me and commenting on my posts.
I miss his smell, his adventurous side and his beautiful green eyes. I miss being held in his arms and kissed.
I don't miss the empty, pleasurable sex, it was like having sex with Brian, I got nothing out of it. He wouldn't take time to turn me on at all. I wish him happiness but I don't think he'll ever find it.