I wish you could have felt what it was like for me, to have to stand there and tell the truth and see it all change - see everything good and pure drain out like water from my hands.

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I can't write about this anymore. I'm done trying to figure it out. All I wanted was to be able to act accordingly to how you feel so that I wouldn't do anything I'd regret or get into something you didn't want. But I guess I'll never really know? And what about what I want?

It's one thing to give up on someone when they knowingly drive you up the wall. It's another thing to give up on someone when they don't know what they're putting you through.

i dont know what i'm doing. typing this and barely able to think and cry at the same time, but for some reason i dont want this left hanging in the air.

i guess one of the worst things about life is that you can't have everything you want.  but tonight i felt something that really tore me up inside a little, and it was the harshest, coldest, ( Read more... )