weight watchers...not the program
i wonder a lot what i really looked like before i got pregnant. cause i was small. 115ish. which isnt small small. but i wasnt big. but i always felt fat. like, really large. people say that when you have an eating disorder that your body image is all messed up. which i believe now. i didnt then cause i would look into the mirror and all i saw were the pugy peices. but now. i feel like i am the same size that i was. when i look into the mirror i still see the pugy peices, but i dont feel like i am larger. i dont utterly hate my body (although there is no way im staying like this). but when i put on my jeans pre-baby. wow. they dont even fit. my fav's that were getting baggy on me are now really tight around my thighs and wont snap. its sad. so i wonder if i was thin then, or fat now?