a lot of rambling.
i think corbin is finally asleep so i am going to take a shower. i dont think i will get to go tanning cause chris is still at his orientation. poo. unless he gets home soon. then it is texas roadhouse with his family. ive never been there. his family always talks about how small i am. they are all a little on the heavier side. its funny they always talk about loosing weight and stuff.
im 133. still. i was 139 when i went to the recruiters. then 133 when i went to the doctors a week or week and a half ago. and this morning i was still 133. damn. i think it just might have to do with the fact that i drank a 12 pk last night during the game. and didnt throw it up. we went to a friends house, so i didnt have a choice. i didnt eat too much. just chips and these little chicken taco things. they were good.
so i guess i amnot a vegetarian anymore. right now i am killer craving a Italian BMT i think. whatever i ate the other day. i think i will loose weight faster not being a veg if i stick to chicken and other pork and white meat. cause it will look like i am eating more to other people. and i am good and only eating a little in front of people. eating around everyone else makes me eat less. if im by myself it is when i go crazy. so i am just not eating if im not around chris or something. cause i am not about to get back into the bulimia shit. i have worked too hard to not.
although i really need to keep throwing up when i drink. cause i dont deal well with hangovers, and i got me a little corbin to take care of.
we are still broke. chris is starting a job today. and we are at least 1 payment late on every bill. 2 on both cars. i need a better paying job. and chris just needs a job. the army will be good i guess. i like being a real person though. i am going to miss that. but hot damn we need money. i would strip if chris let me. i just wouldnt tell anyone ever. and i would only do it till i get money. when i get my body back
im 133. still. i was 139 when i went to the recruiters. then 133 when i went to the doctors a week or week and a half ago. and this morning i was still 133. damn. i think it just might have to do with the fact that i drank a 12 pk last night during the game. and didnt throw it up. we went to a friends house, so i didnt have a choice. i didnt eat too much. just chips and these little chicken taco things. they were good.
so i guess i amnot a vegetarian anymore. right now i am killer craving a Italian BMT i think. whatever i ate the other day. i think i will loose weight faster not being a veg if i stick to chicken and other pork and white meat. cause it will look like i am eating more to other people. and i am good and only eating a little in front of people. eating around everyone else makes me eat less. if im by myself it is when i go crazy. so i am just not eating if im not around chris or something. cause i am not about to get back into the bulimia shit. i have worked too hard to not.
although i really need to keep throwing up when i drink. cause i dont deal well with hangovers, and i got me a little corbin to take care of.
we are still broke. chris is starting a job today. and we are at least 1 payment late on every bill. 2 on both cars. i need a better paying job. and chris just needs a job. the army will be good i guess. i like being a real person though. i am going to miss that. but hot damn we need money. i would strip if chris let me. i just wouldnt tell anyone ever. and i would only do it till i get money. when i get my body back