Updates and such
Well as usual it has been a rather long time since I last updated, well I can't really be bothered checking how long, I just figure it has been a long time, Anyways maybe I should start now then.
Its been a long year, well it feels it anyways. Its now 2nd of april. Well the beginning of it, Its been a very long year. It all started off I found out my dad wasnt my real dad, and found my real dad. I also found I didnt just have the 2 bros and 1 sis as I thought but I actually have 5 brothers and 3 sisters, which is a little weird but im sure I will manage. Its just been really odd, 1 of my sisters is estranged and my dads family dont like her cause she caused some problems a while ago so I haven't had the opportunity to meet her yet. However the rest of my family are ok, well there nice enough.
But recently since it started things have just died down, I dunno, its just not really that big a deal really, and I always kinda just 'knew' that the dad I had wasnt my real dad. But anyways, on with the story. My sister from dads side keeps getting all moody with my because I won't call my real dad "dad", which I dont really feel the need to or particulary want to. With the guy that raised us I never really had a father son relationship and that is the way that I liked it. He would be in bed I would be downstairs, he'd get up, I'd go to my room... through choice, not because I had to, I just despised him and didn't particularly want to be in the same place as him.
And Im glad it was like that, I wouldnt really want the whole father son emotional crap. I like things to be simple and as they are now. That way I dont have to go around pretentding to be happy and spending time doing boring meaningless crap just for the sole purpose to make them feel good about themselves and think they are being a good parent or some shit like that. I mean i'm not saying that they aren't a good parent, but I don't particulary want to be any part of bonding or traditional family bonding crap where the son goes and plays football with the dad (I hate football, but Its the point that counts) or have the dad take an active part and try and figure stuff your interested in and try and get involved, or ask you tonnes of questions about you. It just really annoys me and gets under my skin. I mean just because I play the guitar doesnt mean I want to sit for half an hour talking with you about guitars or let you listen to my guitar playing, or anything at all like that. Or have you want to take me to gigs and try take an active part. (where "you" refers to dad). Maybe I am unsociable or something like that but I dunno, I just get agitated when family just want to know everything about you or try and kinda cross into your life, I mean to take the guitar idea, yes I play guitar, I dont want to spend time talking to you about that. And yes I like metal, but I dont see why I should need to talk to you about that or give you any sort of information about that. Why does being a parent mean you have to try all the bonding shit and just try and seem interested and just basically annoy your kids to total satanistic levels.
I just like to be left alone, and not have to bother with stuff like that.Its like family holidays and all that stuff, I just cant be bothered wondering round playing the happy nice son, who gets on with there family and just looovesss to spend time doing "man" things with their dad, like football, DIY, driving, and tonnes of shit like that. I just hate that sort of person.
Eurgh that turned into a rant
Anyways onwards to work.
Well I have been working for over half a year now since September, and to be quite honest my job is completely shite, the pay is low, the work is boring, and the staff are backstabbing, well apart from my department boss which is alright, But everyone else just stabs you in the back if they get the chance. Its really annoying and it pisses me off when people are two faced, I mean your two minutes late and there slagging you off to everyone else but the minute you walk through the door there all Hii, how are you, and smiles and all that false bullshit. I just cant be arsed with that shit.
I need a new job it would seem, preferably one that doesn't involve colour correcting photographers crap pictures when they should learn to take a picture right in the first place rather than us fixing it and making it look better than they can take it as. Some of the pics we print and give to customers are complete shite, I wouldnt pay for pics to that standard, I dont see why they would either. Well I guess it is of there snotty nosed brat kid so theres the whole.... awwwww look at little sarah, isnt she cute in the picture(hmmm yes but the fact that shes got snot in her nose is quite gross( and yes some of the pictures have kids with big bogeys hanging out of there nose, tis gross, and a lot of them haven't even washed before they had picture taken so there would be like black dirt on there hands, and food on there clothes and such, and the sad thing is its not just the kids, some of the adults dont clean up either))
---I had lie down and i have more to say i just dont have the energy right now so I wil finish up later---
Its been a long year, well it feels it anyways. Its now 2nd of april. Well the beginning of it, Its been a very long year. It all started off I found out my dad wasnt my real dad, and found my real dad. I also found I didnt just have the 2 bros and 1 sis as I thought but I actually have 5 brothers and 3 sisters, which is a little weird but im sure I will manage. Its just been really odd, 1 of my sisters is estranged and my dads family dont like her cause she caused some problems a while ago so I haven't had the opportunity to meet her yet. However the rest of my family are ok, well there nice enough.
But recently since it started things have just died down, I dunno, its just not really that big a deal really, and I always kinda just 'knew' that the dad I had wasnt my real dad. But anyways, on with the story. My sister from dads side keeps getting all moody with my because I won't call my real dad "dad", which I dont really feel the need to or particulary want to. With the guy that raised us I never really had a father son relationship and that is the way that I liked it. He would be in bed I would be downstairs, he'd get up, I'd go to my room... through choice, not because I had to, I just despised him and didn't particularly want to be in the same place as him.
And Im glad it was like that, I wouldnt really want the whole father son emotional crap. I like things to be simple and as they are now. That way I dont have to go around pretentding to be happy and spending time doing boring meaningless crap just for the sole purpose to make them feel good about themselves and think they are being a good parent or some shit like that. I mean i'm not saying that they aren't a good parent, but I don't particulary want to be any part of bonding or traditional family bonding crap where the son goes and plays football with the dad (I hate football, but Its the point that counts) or have the dad take an active part and try and figure stuff your interested in and try and get involved, or ask you tonnes of questions about you. It just really annoys me and gets under my skin. I mean just because I play the guitar doesnt mean I want to sit for half an hour talking with you about guitars or let you listen to my guitar playing, or anything at all like that. Or have you want to take me to gigs and try take an active part. (where "you" refers to dad). Maybe I am unsociable or something like that but I dunno, I just get agitated when family just want to know everything about you or try and kinda cross into your life, I mean to take the guitar idea, yes I play guitar, I dont want to spend time talking to you about that. And yes I like metal, but I dont see why I should need to talk to you about that or give you any sort of information about that. Why does being a parent mean you have to try all the bonding shit and just try and seem interested and just basically annoy your kids to total satanistic levels.
I just like to be left alone, and not have to bother with stuff like that.Its like family holidays and all that stuff, I just cant be bothered wondering round playing the happy nice son, who gets on with there family and just looovesss to spend time doing "man" things with their dad, like football, DIY, driving, and tonnes of shit like that. I just hate that sort of person.
Eurgh that turned into a rant
Anyways onwards to work.
Well I have been working for over half a year now since September, and to be quite honest my job is completely shite, the pay is low, the work is boring, and the staff are backstabbing, well apart from my department boss which is alright, But everyone else just stabs you in the back if they get the chance. Its really annoying and it pisses me off when people are two faced, I mean your two minutes late and there slagging you off to everyone else but the minute you walk through the door there all Hii, how are you, and smiles and all that false bullshit. I just cant be arsed with that shit.
I need a new job it would seem, preferably one that doesn't involve colour correcting photographers crap pictures when they should learn to take a picture right in the first place rather than us fixing it and making it look better than they can take it as. Some of the pics we print and give to customers are complete shite, I wouldnt pay for pics to that standard, I dont see why they would either. Well I guess it is of there snotty nosed brat kid so theres the whole.... awwwww look at little sarah, isnt she cute in the picture(hmmm yes but the fact that shes got snot in her nose is quite gross( and yes some of the pictures have kids with big bogeys hanging out of there nose, tis gross, and a lot of them haven't even washed before they had picture taken so there would be like black dirt on there hands, and food on there clothes and such, and the sad thing is its not just the kids, some of the adults dont clean up either))
---I had lie down and i have more to say i just dont have the energy right now so I wil finish up later---