Anoeyed
Take risks and go for the things you want. Beh, that's it innit. If someone doesn't like it / some situation is not fit, oh well. Shucks. I like being the active part. It might come accross as pushy, and it probably is. And yea, that's it. I will take an L if that's the case. And move on, and keep taking risks and trying to go for things that I want.
But, am I too pushy that will, incidentally, push people AWAY from me, for being this pushy? I kinda hope not, but it is something to consider and to pay attention to.
I think I like being the person who does the choosing and chasing because it gives me a sense of control and agency (OR, I have been conditioned so badly, that this is what I think I like).
I wrote a list of stupid things that I want from life, here's this list:
1. Create culture - writing, podcasting, painting (in order of more relevant to less relevant. I think writing has the most potential to reach people. Although I love painting and drawing, it's often abstract and a harder medium to convey information)
2. Create knowledge - medical AI, user privacy, fundamental mathematics (again, from order of relevancy)
3. Have a family
4. Be financially well off - investing, saving money
5. Go on Joe Rogan's podcast (as the ultimate I am a relevant person token!)
It's kinda a joke, kinda a real thing. I don't know, I feel like I am stagnating, like I am not focused these days. Fuck, I WANT TO STOP BEING A LOSER.
But, am I too pushy that will, incidentally, push people AWAY from me, for being this pushy? I kinda hope not, but it is something to consider and to pay attention to.
I think I like being the person who does the choosing and chasing because it gives me a sense of control and agency (OR, I have been conditioned so badly, that this is what I think I like).
I wrote a list of stupid things that I want from life, here's this list:
1. Create culture - writing, podcasting, painting (in order of more relevant to less relevant. I think writing has the most potential to reach people. Although I love painting and drawing, it's often abstract and a harder medium to convey information)
2. Create knowledge - medical AI, user privacy, fundamental mathematics (again, from order of relevancy)
3. Have a family
4. Be financially well off - investing, saving money
5. Go on Joe Rogan's podcast (as the ultimate I am a relevant person token!)
It's kinda a joke, kinda a real thing. I don't know, I feel like I am stagnating, like I am not focused these days. Fuck, I WANT TO STOP BEING A LOSER.