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If it seems I've been a bit absent in my online activity, it's only because what's been happening in the physical reality is so incredibly REAL that I haven't had time to digest it all and put it into words: the right words that is. And perhaps now is the time, or maybe I'll try and fail to capture the "essence" of it all, but at least I've tried, right?
Let's go back to the beginning, way back maybe, when it didn't seem anything more than just a random guy asking what it meant to be a "hippie-christian." He went to Central at the same time I did. Our paths never crossed in the physical until this December...after being blindsided and spending hours writing back and forth each day. There was Starbucks, my coffee date with Jaime, and he wrote 'breath easy, i'm still a ways away. be anxious for nothing.' We had coffee, dinner, drinks at Applebees, drinks at Beaus, breakfast at Denny's, coffee at Starbucks, and the adventure began. We've spent as much time together as possible...before I leave for India.
And so it goes. Here I am, in love, with a wonderful man...and I'm leaving in two days (count them, two) and I know that while I'm going to be sad to leave...I'm coming home in June, forever. June first. On one hand I'm counting the days until I come home, but on the other I can't wait until I get there. I'm going to be in India on Friday, at 9:35 pm, after a ridiculous long flight. And I wonder: 'what's in store for me?" What will my emotions be like? What will the physical reality be like? How is it going to feel? I'm excited and oh so nervous. But the thing is, being with Jeremy gives me strength as a woman, strength I didn't know I had. It's like, for awhile I was a single parent...playing mom and dad, and now I get to be feminine and I am enjoying it so much. Going to India will be easier knowing I have him to come back to, or knowing that he is here being strong and masculine. Does it make sense in a weird sort of way? I get to go and be a woman, but not a single woman, I get to embrace the most feminine aspect of me and somehow do it in a foreign country. Will life ever cease to be exciting? :)
When you least expect it.
Let's go back to the beginning, way back maybe, when it didn't seem anything more than just a random guy asking what it meant to be a "hippie-christian." He went to Central at the same time I did. Our paths never crossed in the physical until this December...after being blindsided and spending hours writing back and forth each day. There was Starbucks, my coffee date with Jaime, and he wrote 'breath easy, i'm still a ways away. be anxious for nothing.' We had coffee, dinner, drinks at Applebees, drinks at Beaus, breakfast at Denny's, coffee at Starbucks, and the adventure began. We've spent as much time together as possible...before I leave for India.
And so it goes. Here I am, in love, with a wonderful man...and I'm leaving in two days (count them, two) and I know that while I'm going to be sad to leave...I'm coming home in June, forever. June first. On one hand I'm counting the days until I come home, but on the other I can't wait until I get there. I'm going to be in India on Friday, at 9:35 pm, after a ridiculous long flight. And I wonder: 'what's in store for me?" What will my emotions be like? What will the physical reality be like? How is it going to feel? I'm excited and oh so nervous. But the thing is, being with Jeremy gives me strength as a woman, strength I didn't know I had. It's like, for awhile I was a single parent...playing mom and dad, and now I get to be feminine and I am enjoying it so much. Going to India will be easier knowing I have him to come back to, or knowing that he is here being strong and masculine. Does it make sense in a weird sort of way? I get to go and be a woman, but not a single woman, I get to embrace the most feminine aspect of me and somehow do it in a foreign country. Will life ever cease to be exciting? :)
When you least expect it.