This is a somewhat silly thing to write a post about, which is to say I feel really self-conscious about this.  So here goes.  One of my very most favorite songs is I Had No Right, by Dar Williams.  It is an immensely powerful song and it means a lot to me.

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It means a lot to me-- about how I feel about war, and how I feel about my religion.  And ( Read more... )

This is mildly freaked out me.  I went to church today with some friends.  I got to the building and sat in my car for a few minutes, staring.  I didn't want to go in.  It was too much like DM.  But I went in anyway, feeling kind of sick to my stomach.  And my friend was there, and it wasn't so bad ( Read more... )

It's that time again.  I have been having thinky thoughts for the better part of a week and a half now about Christianity, and if I write them down, maybe they'll make more sense.  Or not.  It is religion.

I am frustrated a lot of the time with certain aspects of my religion, and I have come to realize that it's not my religion, it's the other ( Read more... )

Well, hell.  I thought maybe they couldn't scare me anymore.  I thought that since I had reclaimed myself, my religion, these people couldn't frighten me anymore.  I guess not.  Dammit.  I thought I'd said goodbye to the fear, and the sudden sharp breathlessness of recognition where all I want to do is turn and run ( Read more... )

Today, I am okay in my skin.  And I really like that feeling.

It seems fitting to talk about this on Easter, which is in many ways a rebirth.  I have a complicated relationship with Christianity.  I've talked about it here before.

Lately, I've been thinking about God and Christianity more than I have in a while.  It is hard for me to reconcile my personal ethics and beliefs with the teachings of the Bible, but ( Read more... )

So tired.  And was buzzed, but not anymore.  This has been an exciting, fun, interesting day.  I have done some homework, checked craigslist, walked for suicide prevention, made a half-assed attempt at a bar tour (I suck at being a college student), and bought a vintage pendant that is very steampunk looking.  All in all, a good day ( Read more... )

I am not sure if I am angry, or merely exhausted by the world.  It is only Wednesday, and already I feel drained and overwhelmed.  Perhaps it is that people have been pushing my buttons this week, or that is almost October.  Either way, I feel raw and prickly, to easily upset, and that frustrates me.

The thing is, I do have buttons, and when they ( Read more... )

So today was an interesting day.

There was a fundamentalist Christian group on campus today.  They were standing in front of the HUB with signs which said things such as "Evolution is a Lie," and "Trust Jesus".  Now the "Trust Jesus" sign was fairly inoffensive, fine trust Jesus, I don't really care, but keep it to yourself.  What was on the other ( Read more... )

I ran again today, about two miles, so we'll see how I feel in the morning.  I should have run yesterday, but my back was still hurting from tubing, so I opted to forgo it, and run today.  It was a reasonably nice day, and not too hot for running, which was good.  While on my run, I stopped to talk to a man working in his yard about his roses.  It ( Read more... )