Finding my journey
It seems to me that every 2-3 years it comes a time where I really feel like its necessary that I need to stop and reevaluate my life and where I am going. Its just a feeling that hits me, and it hit me a couple days ago... and hit me harder today. I am on a path toward many years of schooling, with the goal of becoming a neonatal optometrist, or at least a pediatric optometrist. Fine and dandy, but do I really feel like this is where my life is going to go? Technology interests the hell out of me, though I do not care to really make any of it. I spend lots of money on really cool gadgets like a $1000 HD projector... a badass desktop... and HDDVD player.. . a pretty nice camera, cool phones, an ipod (before it broke).. and now my next big purchase is likely to be a macbook, not for the whole "apple vs pc" bullshit... I am just going to either dual boot it with XP or just have XP on it. If I had to take a side I would take PC because it took apple 20 years to really gain ground after fucking up. Anyway, I am getting it because its everything I want in a computer: small, light, very portable, decently powerful, good wifi, cool looking, apparently very durable, and educationally useful. You see, things like this somewhat get me off at night, but they arent the things I want to spend my life about. Either way, I like graphic design, web design, I like knowing things about computers, I like having a lot of cool things on hand, but I do not feel that technology is anything more to me than a hobby.
My major is health and fitness specialist. I can survive off of that because I love the gym and I love exersize. Can I live with that? maybe.
I do not know, this goes beyond what I want to do, this goes to who I want to be. Either most other people have figured it out either sooner, or they hide it better than me. I do not know, and have never known. Everyone says how college is where you figure it out, and I am halfway through my sophomore year, which is just shy of halfway done with college.. and I still do not know. bleh.
Maybe I should give all this technology bid a rest for a while. What I really want to do that I feel will make me figure it out is traveling. Ive felt like that for a while. I want to go to europe or australia. I just want to travel. I really feel like traveling would be great for me, even if permanently. My whole life has been moving. I have lived in 9 separate residences, and been in a single state/country for longer than 2 weeks, 5 times. I am used to being in different places, and I do not feel like where I am is the right place for me. I do not much like the south. I cannot say that all the other places I have been have given me good examples as to whether or not I liked the culture there because they were all either when I was too young to know anything, or too young to even bother paying attention. There are some real assholes in ohio, I dont remember too much about texas, Iowa I do not remember anything too bad from, and the only striking thing about floridas people that I remember is this really old guy at a gas pump getting out of his car and throwing a real shit fit at someone. sheesh.
I want to travel, but traveling takes money, unless I go about it a different way, in which case I think I would be better off still.
My major is health and fitness specialist. I can survive off of that because I love the gym and I love exersize. Can I live with that? maybe.
I do not know, this goes beyond what I want to do, this goes to who I want to be. Either most other people have figured it out either sooner, or they hide it better than me. I do not know, and have never known. Everyone says how college is where you figure it out, and I am halfway through my sophomore year, which is just shy of halfway done with college.. and I still do not know. bleh.
Maybe I should give all this technology bid a rest for a while. What I really want to do that I feel will make me figure it out is traveling. Ive felt like that for a while. I want to go to europe or australia. I just want to travel. I really feel like traveling would be great for me, even if permanently. My whole life has been moving. I have lived in 9 separate residences, and been in a single state/country for longer than 2 weeks, 5 times. I am used to being in different places, and I do not feel like where I am is the right place for me. I do not much like the south. I cannot say that all the other places I have been have given me good examples as to whether or not I liked the culture there because they were all either when I was too young to know anything, or too young to even bother paying attention. There are some real assholes in ohio, I dont remember too much about texas, Iowa I do not remember anything too bad from, and the only striking thing about floridas people that I remember is this really old guy at a gas pump getting out of his car and throwing a real shit fit at someone. sheesh.
I want to travel, but traveling takes money, unless I go about it a different way, in which case I think I would be better off still.