Finding myself
As you can probably tell from the past one or two entries, I am still in the struggle to find out who I am. We all struggle with this but may not make it as apparent as I will be. For starters, I am going to list things about myself that I am, and that I am not. Then things that I like, and do not like. Then maybe answer a few questions that are important.
I am 6 feet and 1-2 inches tall, it varies on my mood and how much I hunch.
I do not know the official name for the color of my eyes, but I have always assumed hazel but after seeing what hazel looks like, I am not so sure... I just know they change color between grey/blue/green.
I am smart but am afraid of my limits, whether I have them or not.
I feel more often than not that I do not have limits.
I am a republican because I do not feel that government should be as involved in our lives as they are, and I do not believe that people should be taxed for the countless things we are uselessly taxed for.
I love working out.
I am straight, but could be seen as being bi or even gay because I am comfortable enough with my sexuality that I really dont care too much about joking around with people about certain things. I.E. I win gay chicken a lot.
I love entertainment technology, I think the new things we invent are fantastic and I hope things keep up because technology is cool.
I do not like technology that makes us lazy.
I enjoy thoughtful music. This would basically mean I do not like rap.
I eat a lot and would put food very high on a list determining my favorite pleasures from God.
I love my girlfriend and fully realize things are way different from when I was last dating my "love".
I collect cards and like poker.
I strive to be perfect in the things that I do, which is probably why I am as competitive of a person as I am. I feel like if I am not the best, theres no point in doing it.
I love the beach, I love the ocean, I love to travel, I love road trips, I love being in new places.
I am a photographer, whether I am a good one or not I do not know. Theres always the saying that anyone can pick up a camera and take a photo but there is indeed more to it. With that being the case, I would say that I am not a photographer yet because a photographer has put thought into the photo and there is meaning to it. The pictures I have just look really nice.
I am nostalgic.
I have strong interests in psychology, history, fitness, and health.
Beer is my friend. Liquor usually is not, but it does taste good.
I enjoy video games of most types.
I have started liking very nice looking clothes and the very nice look they give me.
I like helping people. Its almost a complex.
I like dogs. I hate cats.
Dogs are loyal and listen to you when you call them, you can teach them tricks, they seem more of a friend. Cats do what they want, have a very condescending demeanor and do not "let" you pet them unless they want to be petted. (I am sure there are exceptions on both sides, but this is certainly a generality.)
I like computers and what they can do, I like the internet and what it does.
Wolves are probably my favorite animal.
I like to relax, I get grumpy when I dont. Same with food.
I hate the fact that my parents do not have money and have left me to fend for myself financially technically since 16 and certainly since 17/18.
I wish there was something I could do to make my brother normal, it makes me sad every time I think about it.
I hate being powerless to help.
I suck at talking/getting my point across.
I wish I was better at it.
Not that anyone reads my shit but should anyone read it, I will post this disclaimer before I say this... the word "nigger" is not a word many black people like white people to say. With that said, I will say that they are hypocrites, saying it much themselves, and calling us things that we do not like them to say but are uncaring that we dont want them to say them. That aside, I do not consider the entire race of black people as "niggers" as many white supremacists do. I am myself not racist, nor am I close to being one. I could be seen as one by many uneducated individuals because I will call people out on things they do, but thats not racism, thats judge of character. You could be a purple jewish alien and I wouldnt give a shit unless you were an asshole. Anyway, to my first point of this... black people are cool... niggers are not. Black people are like my friends that can listen to hip hop and all the other things that black people try to do to be as different from white people as they can... WITHOUT being stupid asses. Niggers are black people who do all of these things and are assholes, with very short fuses, and limited educations. Now with all that said. I do not like niggers.
I am somewhat out of what to say as far as those topics go so I will just ask myself and answer two questions. (and if you read the article I read that initially gave me the idea for doing this part 1 of however many parts... congrats.. yes i got these questions from there.)
What would I do if money was not needed and I could do anything I wanted with my life?
I would travel and document/photograph everything ive seen about the cultures, past civilizations, whatever I stumble on. I would at the same time do this while sailing to the different places and vacationing on beaches.
If you had to pick 3 words to describe you, what would they be?
Honest. Resilient. Empathetic.
I am 6 feet and 1-2 inches tall, it varies on my mood and how much I hunch.
I do not know the official name for the color of my eyes, but I have always assumed hazel but after seeing what hazel looks like, I am not so sure... I just know they change color between grey/blue/green.
I am smart but am afraid of my limits, whether I have them or not.
I feel more often than not that I do not have limits.
I am a republican because I do not feel that government should be as involved in our lives as they are, and I do not believe that people should be taxed for the countless things we are uselessly taxed for.
I love working out.
I am straight, but could be seen as being bi or even gay because I am comfortable enough with my sexuality that I really dont care too much about joking around with people about certain things. I.E. I win gay chicken a lot.
I love entertainment technology, I think the new things we invent are fantastic and I hope things keep up because technology is cool.
I do not like technology that makes us lazy.
I enjoy thoughtful music. This would basically mean I do not like rap.
I eat a lot and would put food very high on a list determining my favorite pleasures from God.
I love my girlfriend and fully realize things are way different from when I was last dating my "love".
I collect cards and like poker.
I strive to be perfect in the things that I do, which is probably why I am as competitive of a person as I am. I feel like if I am not the best, theres no point in doing it.
I love the beach, I love the ocean, I love to travel, I love road trips, I love being in new places.
I am a photographer, whether I am a good one or not I do not know. Theres always the saying that anyone can pick up a camera and take a photo but there is indeed more to it. With that being the case, I would say that I am not a photographer yet because a photographer has put thought into the photo and there is meaning to it. The pictures I have just look really nice.
I am nostalgic.
I have strong interests in psychology, history, fitness, and health.
Beer is my friend. Liquor usually is not, but it does taste good.
I enjoy video games of most types.
I have started liking very nice looking clothes and the very nice look they give me.
I like helping people. Its almost a complex.
I like dogs. I hate cats.
Dogs are loyal and listen to you when you call them, you can teach them tricks, they seem more of a friend. Cats do what they want, have a very condescending demeanor and do not "let" you pet them unless they want to be petted. (I am sure there are exceptions on both sides, but this is certainly a generality.)
I like computers and what they can do, I like the internet and what it does.
Wolves are probably my favorite animal.
I like to relax, I get grumpy when I dont. Same with food.
I hate the fact that my parents do not have money and have left me to fend for myself financially technically since 16 and certainly since 17/18.
I wish there was something I could do to make my brother normal, it makes me sad every time I think about it.
I hate being powerless to help.
I suck at talking/getting my point across.
I wish I was better at it.
Not that anyone reads my shit but should anyone read it, I will post this disclaimer before I say this... the word "nigger" is not a word many black people like white people to say. With that said, I will say that they are hypocrites, saying it much themselves, and calling us things that we do not like them to say but are uncaring that we dont want them to say them. That aside, I do not consider the entire race of black people as "niggers" as many white supremacists do. I am myself not racist, nor am I close to being one. I could be seen as one by many uneducated individuals because I will call people out on things they do, but thats not racism, thats judge of character. You could be a purple jewish alien and I wouldnt give a shit unless you were an asshole. Anyway, to my first point of this... black people are cool... niggers are not. Black people are like my friends that can listen to hip hop and all the other things that black people try to do to be as different from white people as they can... WITHOUT being stupid asses. Niggers are black people who do all of these things and are assholes, with very short fuses, and limited educations. Now with all that said. I do not like niggers.
I am somewhat out of what to say as far as those topics go so I will just ask myself and answer two questions. (and if you read the article I read that initially gave me the idea for doing this part 1 of however many parts... congrats.. yes i got these questions from there.)
What would I do if money was not needed and I could do anything I wanted with my life?
I would travel and document/photograph everything ive seen about the cultures, past civilizations, whatever I stumble on. I would at the same time do this while sailing to the different places and vacationing on beaches.
If you had to pick 3 words to describe you, what would they be?
Honest. Resilient. Empathetic.