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everything just got shaky again =(
my mom called yesterday. when i saw her name show up on my cell i started shaking and decided not to answer it. a few seconds later i had a voicemail. on the message my mom wasnt angry like i thought she might be. she sounded really sad and pathetic. she told me she was getting counseling. and that we were always welcome back home. but everything happens for a reason. she told me she loved me and missed me. she was crying.
i cried. but i didnt call her back. for some reason all i want to do is ignore the situation. i feel like the relationship between my mom and i can never be fixed. because this has happened before. im not sure if im ready to call her back any time soon.
on top of that. dad came home yesterday with bad news. they're going to cut some flights at the airport starting in august. which most likely means some people are going to be layed off. they told everybody that nobody would be getting layed off but why would they tell them they were getting layed off? of course they're going to lie. otherwise how much effort would they expect the workers to put into their work if they knew they were going to be layed off in a few months? i dont know.. maybe dads just being paranoid about it. but with good reason. because if he loses his job theres no way we're going to be able to afford the house we were looking at. so dads kind of hesitant on closing the deal on the house. im just praying everything works out. nows not exactly the greatest time to have everything else fall through =/