updateish
In the brief:
Relationship: Ended, but managed in time to salvage friendship... in fact, we talk more and get along better since the break up than we ever did as a couple. I kind of actually love when that happens, the worst part of breakups is losing the friend becuase romance died with the lover... We have agreed that there is zero potential or interest in reconciliation, so there's no tension or awkwardness involved. He's goin in his direction and I'm off down my own path.
Finances: Need job badly. Applying for unemployment which I should've done 2 months ago :( Planning on a trip to the pawn shop tomorrow to see if some bits I have laying about (cameras I don't use, etc type small electronics) so that I can deposit enough money in my bank account to keep the gym membership (which we barely used, meh) from overdrafting...
Puppy: Has fleas. Has worms. Hoping pawn shop will give me enough to get her to a vet for some meds. Small wriggly white rice looking bits that the internet tells me are tapeworms that came about because she ate a flea :( Otherwise happy, bouncy, hyper, occasionally clingy... working on weaning her away from separation anxiety behaviors (she cries for a while when I leave, but I'm told does eventually settle down after 15-20 min or so). Still tiny and adorable. Will not cuddle with other dogs but tried to snuggle up with one of the roommate's cats the other day :)
Romantic potential: Exists, and has a great deal of exciting things in store if it works out as I'd like. Relationship would involve both polyamory and delicious kinds of kink... Some confusion has been afoot and we've both tried to push the other away but its like an addiction I have no desire to resist or give up :) so we'll see where it goes and how things play out. Have a couple of other flirtations afoot, but all are aware. There is one who I wish could fully share with the other but I don't see two alpha male types being able to share equally... and he is aware that my first choice is still the one that I was into long before we met. Maybe just a fling until thigns become more serious with the one, or until the other finds someone he'd like to explore a relationship with.
Mood: Had a minor fit of emo/angst last week... much was resolved by discovering it was pms which I hadn't dealt with in almost a year due to having been on depo previously... otherwise? Mostly in good spirits, with occasional downs concerning job/finance situation.
Overall, moving forward. Even considering going back to school as many have tried to convince me to do for the last decade+, need to look at some options and see whether the things I'm considering are even realistic. Will update more on that once I've put more thought into it :)
34 comes in less than a month, and for once the thought of a birthday doesn't freak me out. I feel like I'm headed in the right direction for progress, and that makes me happy
Relationship: Ended, but managed in time to salvage friendship... in fact, we talk more and get along better since the break up than we ever did as a couple. I kind of actually love when that happens, the worst part of breakups is losing the friend becuase romance died with the lover... We have agreed that there is zero potential or interest in reconciliation, so there's no tension or awkwardness involved. He's goin in his direction and I'm off down my own path.
Finances: Need job badly. Applying for unemployment which I should've done 2 months ago :( Planning on a trip to the pawn shop tomorrow to see if some bits I have laying about (cameras I don't use, etc type small electronics) so that I can deposit enough money in my bank account to keep the gym membership (which we barely used, meh) from overdrafting...
Puppy: Has fleas. Has worms. Hoping pawn shop will give me enough to get her to a vet for some meds. Small wriggly white rice looking bits that the internet tells me are tapeworms that came about because she ate a flea :( Otherwise happy, bouncy, hyper, occasionally clingy... working on weaning her away from separation anxiety behaviors (she cries for a while when I leave, but I'm told does eventually settle down after 15-20 min or so). Still tiny and adorable. Will not cuddle with other dogs but tried to snuggle up with one of the roommate's cats the other day :)
Romantic potential: Exists, and has a great deal of exciting things in store if it works out as I'd like. Relationship would involve both polyamory and delicious kinds of kink... Some confusion has been afoot and we've both tried to push the other away but its like an addiction I have no desire to resist or give up :) so we'll see where it goes and how things play out. Have a couple of other flirtations afoot, but all are aware. There is one who I wish could fully share with the other but I don't see two alpha male types being able to share equally... and he is aware that my first choice is still the one that I was into long before we met. Maybe just a fling until thigns become more serious with the one, or until the other finds someone he'd like to explore a relationship with.
Mood: Had a minor fit of emo/angst last week... much was resolved by discovering it was pms which I hadn't dealt with in almost a year due to having been on depo previously... otherwise? Mostly in good spirits, with occasional downs concerning job/finance situation.
Overall, moving forward. Even considering going back to school as many have tried to convince me to do for the last decade+, need to look at some options and see whether the things I'm considering are even realistic. Will update more on that once I've put more thought into it :)
34 comes in less than a month, and for once the thought of a birthday doesn't freak me out. I feel like I'm headed in the right direction for progress, and that makes me happy