stabbing me right in the back again you are the reason why im my only friend
So yeah I hate when im in my moods like this. I think too much into everything even when I know that I have absolutely nothing to worry about. Like Dane Cook says sometimes you just need a good cry. I feel like this is the night when I just need my good cry. I hate it. STUPID period messing with my hormones lol. Sometimes I feel that he doesnt want to be in this. And then at times I feel like he does. And its the worst feeling in the world not knowing what hes thinking. I dont know its probably me just being gay like normal. Sometimes I feel like I have to be his little secret. And its mostly my fault b/c I never ask questions. I'm always afraid of the outcome of the questions that I dont ask them. I dont know anymore. Maybe its me. Maybe everything that is done is b/c of me. B/c god hates me b/c he likes seeing me go through this shit. I dont know. im happy dont get me wrong but I hate feeling like im some secret. I think Im just gonna have to out right tell him that. I was a secret once before, and I promised myself that I would never do that again b/c of how I felt. ugh I dont know. I guess I ahve something to look forward to on friday so im excited about that. REVERY!!! And then the week after that SOMETHING LIKE 7... good times...okay im going to bed peace out