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Well I'm here three years later. And I am pregnant again. Hoping all is ok. Going for US tuesday. These symptoms have been weird this time. Kyle has been shouting it to the moon while I have been asking him to keep his mouth shut. I am 8 weeks today. I just don't want to jinx anything. Morning sickness is a whore, btw. I am probably just imagining ( Read more... ) -
January 24, 2014
So in an update to what has been a long time since I have written, I have ranted about many things but mostly it annoys me that I don't belong. I am treated like a ghost everywhere that I go. People don't talk to me, people don't listen to me. People just blow me off. At work I am alienated, and left out when I make an error. They just bitch about ( Read more... ) -
what the fuck
Ok. So he's too scrawney? He's still 15 to 25th percentile. Some just have growth spurts later. As he was advised to day would you have listened to him when you got home. You can't see his rib cage and he's not failure to thrive. He is quite active. The only reason he hasn't eaten enough as of late is because I have had to make the choice to keep ( Read more... ) -
fuck you
I am choosing to rant because someone is choosing to accuse me of not liking someone else's kids because they are down and out and mentally ill. First off you invited them without my permission. Second I judge on peoples actions, not their status. As one who was raised by someone mentally ill and she by rights had a worse fucking illness than you ( Read more... ) -
I got nothing
So currently there is all out war going on in this house. I have been accused of not loving my son, when I have borrowed, and pawned just to feed him, I have been accused of not finding a suitable job that meets the needs of this family. Primarily, to put it bluntly, I sometimes wonder if I'm not dead, because no one hears me. Fucking shit.
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Whatever
So in the midst of all this holiday cheer I'm finding it hard to function. Let alone do anything useful. Cindy, who I feel as close to as a mother. Just tried to kill herself. I found her, called the cops and thought to myself why, was it something we did? Does living here equate to no way out for her? Either way she is going to be in mental health ( Read more... ) -
Fuckers
Just watched Kyle lose his job from Grafitti Burger. Kenny chose another friend over Kyle. He probably had him lined up for a while, and just didnt wanna hurt Kyle's feelings. What a fuckhead. -
Ugh
I will always have many regrets, but my biggest one will always be feeling the loss of you.
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Feel Guilty
So I am not telling anyone else but you, journal. We are in the process of buying a home. A nice home. And my fear is that I will be denied. My hope is that it will be a place to raise my son, and to watch him grow. http://www.zillow.com/homedetails/85047876_zpid its ( Read more... )
