numb
right now i feel numb.. i cant feel anything i dont know why but im so unhappy right now my body has gone numb. if i were to stab myself i dont think i would feel it. and even tho that sounds like a good idea im not allowed to try it out. old habbits would be great right now but there old habbits for a reason. i dont know what i want for once. usually im pretty good at knowing what i want an exsactly how im going to get it..thats how ive always been. but i dont know anymore. i dont wanna talk about it anymore im already depressed enough for today.