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i have been thinking an i need change in my life. i am no longer pursuing a degree in music anything. i will continue singing but thats only because i like to sing. i was talkin to an illustrator whos a friend of mine. he already has some books out an i was asking him how i could go about getting a book published. he gave me som great tips an even added in that once i find a publishing company that i like i should have the editor give him a call and he will do all the illustrations for me... i think thats really awesome but im still a little scared to submit my work in. i have been writing for years and hiding it all in my room, so im a tad bit scared that ppl will think it sucks. if this all goes down according to plan that would be a big change in my life. also my mom wants to move to GA in two years so chances are thats where ill be in two years also. that would also be a great big change in my life but this is not for sure yet so ill just have to wait an see.
im not happy with myself much anymore im not happy with life. its been better an i realize that what i thought i wanted t do all my life turns out to be somthing that everyone else wanted me to do. thats the deal with the whole music thing. all my life my family pushed me into music so i always just assumed thats what im going to go into when i get older. then i soon realized that the only thing i like doing is preforming music and while i think i have a good voice and can play the instruments i play well. its like i dont really know how to explain it but learning about how music works does not intrest me i dont care whats songs are made up of i just care how they sound not y they sound the way they do. i finally will be pursing somthing completely different than what ive been telling myself all my life. if it doesnt work out then i know that i can always fall back on music but i wanna try somthing new.
i have been thinking about so much lately that its driving me insane an usually i like when things are a little crazy but i have been making myself crazy and i dont like it. i dont feel much like getting into it tho because it will make me think about it more and i dotn want to think about it. but im gonna go and hopefully tonight will be better. but i really dont see that happening. take care thanks for reading . i love you
im not happy with myself much anymore im not happy with life. its been better an i realize that what i thought i wanted t do all my life turns out to be somthing that everyone else wanted me to do. thats the deal with the whole music thing. all my life my family pushed me into music so i always just assumed thats what im going to go into when i get older. then i soon realized that the only thing i like doing is preforming music and while i think i have a good voice and can play the instruments i play well. its like i dont really know how to explain it but learning about how music works does not intrest me i dont care whats songs are made up of i just care how they sound not y they sound the way they do. i finally will be pursing somthing completely different than what ive been telling myself all my life. if it doesnt work out then i know that i can always fall back on music but i wanna try somthing new.
i have been thinking about so much lately that its driving me insane an usually i like when things are a little crazy but i have been making myself crazy and i dont like it. i dont feel much like getting into it tho because it will make me think about it more and i dotn want to think about it. but im gonna go and hopefully tonight will be better. but i really dont see that happening. take care thanks for reading . i love you