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I knew breaking up with AdAm AGAIN would hurt but wow I didnt think it was gonna hurt this bad or hit this hard. In the past it hasnt hurt this much. Maybe its because after 14 months he finally said I LOVE YOU and I belived him. But how can you be so selfish and be so cruel to someone you love? How can you be non-supportive in the things they are most passsionate about? I will admitt I was kinda crazy and kept trying to talk to him but it was only because I didnt understand why he said such aful words to me. It boggles my mind how he can STILL say he loves me yet at the same time put me down. He says he needs a few days and that he will call me bc he doesnt know if this is gonna be a perment break up. Part of me doesnt want him to ever call me again. I know I shouldnt go back to him. He is not worth my time anymore, hes not worth all the stress and pain. But then again I do love him and sometimes I feel like I should be with him, I just think of the good times.......BLAH I dont even know what I am saying. I need to let go......