I hate the way you say my name...
Wow, so first off...
HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!
We're supposed to go out to some pub tonight... but I don't know. I want to go but I think that I just want to do something by myself.
I just feel so disappointed all the time. And like I'm missing out on everything that life has to offer me. I rely way to much on what others think and pleasing everyone other than me.
I need to take lessons at being selfish.
Bobby has been so strange lately and I really don't know what to make of it. I know that everything is okay between us, but he has just been acting so distant and I don't know how to handle it. I just wish that he would talk to me. I feel so in the dark. He has been so great to me and I just wish that I could return the favor.
Felix fell off for like 2 weeks, but I just talked to him so I guess everything there is good.
I don't mind being average, dorky, mediocre or incredibly boring. I do mind being taken advantage of and walked on and when people make me cry.
I hate being the mediator and the one always caught in the middle, forced to choose sides, regardless of how much I kick and scream.
School is going suprisingly well so far. I made dean's list last semester and that made me relatively proud of myself...
I don't know anymore. I am trying so hard to be positive, but I just can't do it anymore. I don't want to pretend but I don't want to feel replaceable anymore.
HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!
We're supposed to go out to some pub tonight... but I don't know. I want to go but I think that I just want to do something by myself.
I just feel so disappointed all the time. And like I'm missing out on everything that life has to offer me. I rely way to much on what others think and pleasing everyone other than me.
I need to take lessons at being selfish.
Bobby has been so strange lately and I really don't know what to make of it. I know that everything is okay between us, but he has just been acting so distant and I don't know how to handle it. I just wish that he would talk to me. I feel so in the dark. He has been so great to me and I just wish that I could return the favor.
Felix fell off for like 2 weeks, but I just talked to him so I guess everything there is good.
I don't mind being average, dorky, mediocre or incredibly boring. I do mind being taken advantage of and walked on and when people make me cry.
I hate being the mediator and the one always caught in the middle, forced to choose sides, regardless of how much I kick and scream.
School is going suprisingly well so far. I made dean's list last semester and that made me relatively proud of myself...
I don't know anymore. I am trying so hard to be positive, but I just can't do it anymore. I don't want to pretend but I don't want to feel replaceable anymore.