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I am tired of pretending and playing all these games that I have become so good at. Pasting a fake smile across my face like everything is alright. Really it's not, and I am done pretending that it is. If everyone could quit lying about everything, that might make things a little better. But really, this time I am done.
I get walked on and stepped all over and there is noone to blame but myself. I let it happen. I LET people use and abuse me until there is nothing left for me. That is all I want, just a little bit of my own dignity back.
I hate to sound like a whiny bitch but you can only keep so much bottled up inside.
It is time to just let go of everything. I am not a fan of burning bridges, but in this case I think that it is more than necessary.
I wish that everything was good and that I was naive to everything going on around me but that is just not reality.
Nothing really going on except all that. I just want to make everything better. I want to start doing things for me and not for everyone else. I live to please and it is never about me. The only place that it is about me is here, where I come to vent. G-rated compared to my paper journal though. I just wish that I could release everything.
I get walked on and stepped all over and there is noone to blame but myself. I let it happen. I LET people use and abuse me until there is nothing left for me. That is all I want, just a little bit of my own dignity back.
I hate to sound like a whiny bitch but you can only keep so much bottled up inside.
It is time to just let go of everything. I am not a fan of burning bridges, but in this case I think that it is more than necessary.
I wish that everything was good and that I was naive to everything going on around me but that is just not reality.
Nothing really going on except all that. I just want to make everything better. I want to start doing things for me and not for everyone else. I live to please and it is never about me. The only place that it is about me is here, where I come to vent. G-rated compared to my paper journal though. I just wish that I could release everything.