he saves money on his phone bill...........

[me_into_you]

why do i take things so hard?
why do i make things into something they arent,
this is not my fault,
im a good guy and all,
i dont need to do anything,
but i cant figure out what to do at all,
without her there,
i just hate the time i spend thinking about her,
i find myself cursing it,
because at the end of the day all i want to do is lay by her side,
and i cant....
why???
just cant....
so its hard you see,
its just such a quick change,
not to mention a horrible one,
but again i didnt do anything wrong,
so then why do i feel like such a bad person,
maybe its not bad,
maybe its just somewhere between bad and useless,
yeah the soft center right between the two,
i think about her all day long,
i used to text something nice or call during those times,
and now i cant....
why???
just cant.....
i dont even know if she misses me,
i get no messages of her adoration,
no signs or signals of any kind,
havent heard i love you in four days now,
havent read it in two,
the people who really know me know that i hate uncertainty,
and all this uncertainty is killing me,
the truth is,
i am weak,
but im strong too,
im a jerk,
but im so nice,
im pretty much always crying on the inside now,
im always thinking depressing thoughts,
im starting to drink waaay too much,
and abusing all forms of illegal substances,
that i know has to stop,
perhaps even all together for a while,
its solving nothing,
and helping me to feel even more horrid,
i just dont know what to do,
its hard to ive your life for yourself alone,
when you dont want to......