The stony path of life (3/?)
Title: The stony path of life
Author: McAwesome1993
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Post 6x19; Arizona struggels with herself and Callie's decision.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Everything and everyone in this fanfic belongs to Shonda Rhimes and ABC.
A/N1: Ok, so this time I used the lyrics of Marit Larsen's ,,This is me, this is you''. I kinda love that song. =)
A/N2: Well, I wrote this chapter in my French lesson, so please, please excuse the mistakes I might have overseen. I reread it but maybe I didn't find all of them. ;D
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3. This is me, this is you
Your skin feels like counting the bricks in the city,
Your temper’s light like all the girls in the city,
Your eyes are like a cold, cold swim in the river,
Your words are like flowers floating by on the river.
Our eyes meet. And I feel it again. For a short moment I regret everything and just want to grab her by her shirt and kiss her senseless. I knew we’d be forced to work together again. And I also knew it would be hard, but it is much harder than I ever could’ve imagined! I force my attention back to the little boy lying between us. He broke his leg by falling off a tree and of course she is the only available ortho attending right now! We both haven’t said a word since she entered the room. I let Lexie present. I couldn’t do it. I reach for some bandages the same second she does. When our hands touch I feel electricity flowing though my whole body. That’s enough! I can’t take it anymore! I run out of the room and into the next on-call room I can find. I don’t even bother to look back and it doesn’t matter to me what people might think or say. I just lie down on the bed and let the tears fall.
So now we’re just like everyone else,
You’re a riddle to me, you’re a stranger to me!
And now we’re just like everyone else,
A few hours ago we were getting old!
And our love, it is reduced
To this is me and this is you!
I don’t know how long I’ve already been lying here when I hear the door open. It’s her. I just know it. But I don’t want her here. I don’t want her to see me like this. The door closes and I hear her footsteps come nearer.
,,Are you ok?’’ she asks. I turn around to face her.
,,No!’’ I snap. ,,Do I look ‘ok’?’’ I don’t mean to sound so angry, but I want her to go away. It hurts only to be near her. I turn my back towards her again.
,,Sorry!’’ is all she replies. I know she’s hurt but right now I need to be alone. After a few minutes of silence I hear her go to the door and open it, but before she closes it again she says: ,,I really hope we can at least stay friends!’’ With that she’s gone. I break down. I can’t hold back my sobs any longer. How am I supposed to survive this?
Mystery how we were once so familiar,
It’s hard to see how we were once so familiar!
Lightyears apart standing here next to each other,
Impossible standing here next to each other!
,,Arizona? Can I come in?’’ Teddy’s voice breaks through my thought. I turn around to look at her. She has a look of concern on her face. Normally I’d say no, but she kinda became my best friend and that’s exactly what I need now. But before I can say yes she already noticed the tears streaming down my cheeks and came towards the bed I’m lying on to quickly pull me into her arms.
,,What happened? I saw Callie leave this room a few minutes ago with tears in her eyes and now I find you in here crying as well. What’s wrong?’’ she asks.
After a few minutes I gather enough strength to answer.
,,I broke up with her yesterday.’’ As soon as the words leave my mouth I see Teddy’s face fall and I start sobbing again. I can’t remember crying that much my whole life.
,, Arizona, I’m sorry to ask you, but why? I mean, yesterday you both seemed so happy and now …’’ she whispers.
,,We haven’t be really happy for a few weeks. I accidently let slip that I don’t want to have children and she wants them and we tried to avoid this topic and yesterday she even told me she didn’t need them but I know she does and I can’t give her that and I just want the best for her and so I … I just …’’ I’m not able to continue but I see understanding in Teddy’s eyes before she pulls me in a tight hug once again as I break down. We sit there for what feels like hours before her pager goes off. She pulls away to look at it.
,,Crap! It’s a 911!’’ she says. I look up at her. ,,I’m sorry, but …’’
,,Go!’’ I stop her.
,,You sure?’’ she asks. ,,I could get Yang to answer it …’’
,,No! Go, Teddy! I’ll be fine. I need to get back to work anyway.’’
,,Ok, but if you need anything you page me!’’ she says as she gets up.
,,Teddy?’’ I call out before she closes the door. She turns around. ,,Thank you!’’ She smiles at me.
,,That’s what best friends are there for!’’ she says and closes the door.
Short after she’s gone, I get up as well. I still feel weak and like I’m about to cry again any second, but I need to get back to work. I look into the mirror and wipe away the last tears. When I’m sure I don’t look too crappy anymore I get out of the on-call room hoping I won’t run into the woman I love again.
Our love has been reduced to this is me and this is you!
Author: McAwesome1993
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Post 6x19; Arizona struggels with herself and Callie's decision.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Everything and everyone in this fanfic belongs to Shonda Rhimes and ABC.
A/N1: Ok, so this time I used the lyrics of Marit Larsen's ,,This is me, this is you''. I kinda love that song. =)
A/N2: Well, I wrote this chapter in my French lesson, so please, please excuse the mistakes I might have overseen. I reread it but maybe I didn't find all of them. ;D
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3. This is me, this is you
Your skin feels like counting the bricks in the city,
Your temper’s light like all the girls in the city,
Your eyes are like a cold, cold swim in the river,
Your words are like flowers floating by on the river.
Our eyes meet. And I feel it again. For a short moment I regret everything and just want to grab her by her shirt and kiss her senseless. I knew we’d be forced to work together again. And I also knew it would be hard, but it is much harder than I ever could’ve imagined! I force my attention back to the little boy lying between us. He broke his leg by falling off a tree and of course she is the only available ortho attending right now! We both haven’t said a word since she entered the room. I let Lexie present. I couldn’t do it. I reach for some bandages the same second she does. When our hands touch I feel electricity flowing though my whole body. That’s enough! I can’t take it anymore! I run out of the room and into the next on-call room I can find. I don’t even bother to look back and it doesn’t matter to me what people might think or say. I just lie down on the bed and let the tears fall.
So now we’re just like everyone else,
You’re a riddle to me, you’re a stranger to me!
And now we’re just like everyone else,
A few hours ago we were getting old!
And our love, it is reduced
To this is me and this is you!
I don’t know how long I’ve already been lying here when I hear the door open. It’s her. I just know it. But I don’t want her here. I don’t want her to see me like this. The door closes and I hear her footsteps come nearer.
,,Are you ok?’’ she asks. I turn around to face her.
,,No!’’ I snap. ,,Do I look ‘ok’?’’ I don’t mean to sound so angry, but I want her to go away. It hurts only to be near her. I turn my back towards her again.
,,Sorry!’’ is all she replies. I know she’s hurt but right now I need to be alone. After a few minutes of silence I hear her go to the door and open it, but before she closes it again she says: ,,I really hope we can at least stay friends!’’ With that she’s gone. I break down. I can’t hold back my sobs any longer. How am I supposed to survive this?
Mystery how we were once so familiar,
It’s hard to see how we were once so familiar!
Lightyears apart standing here next to each other,
Impossible standing here next to each other!
,,Arizona? Can I come in?’’ Teddy’s voice breaks through my thought. I turn around to look at her. She has a look of concern on her face. Normally I’d say no, but she kinda became my best friend and that’s exactly what I need now. But before I can say yes she already noticed the tears streaming down my cheeks and came towards the bed I’m lying on to quickly pull me into her arms.
,,What happened? I saw Callie leave this room a few minutes ago with tears in her eyes and now I find you in here crying as well. What’s wrong?’’ she asks.
After a few minutes I gather enough strength to answer.
,,I broke up with her yesterday.’’ As soon as the words leave my mouth I see Teddy’s face fall and I start sobbing again. I can’t remember crying that much my whole life.
,, Arizona, I’m sorry to ask you, but why? I mean, yesterday you both seemed so happy and now …’’ she whispers.
,,We haven’t be really happy for a few weeks. I accidently let slip that I don’t want to have children and she wants them and we tried to avoid this topic and yesterday she even told me she didn’t need them but I know she does and I can’t give her that and I just want the best for her and so I … I just …’’ I’m not able to continue but I see understanding in Teddy’s eyes before she pulls me in a tight hug once again as I break down. We sit there for what feels like hours before her pager goes off. She pulls away to look at it.
,,Crap! It’s a 911!’’ she says. I look up at her. ,,I’m sorry, but …’’
,,Go!’’ I stop her.
,,You sure?’’ she asks. ,,I could get Yang to answer it …’’
,,No! Go, Teddy! I’ll be fine. I need to get back to work anyway.’’
,,Ok, but if you need anything you page me!’’ she says as she gets up.
,,Teddy?’’ I call out before she closes the door. She turns around. ,,Thank you!’’ She smiles at me.
,,That’s what best friends are there for!’’ she says and closes the door.
Short after she’s gone, I get up as well. I still feel weak and like I’m about to cry again any second, but I need to get back to work. I look into the mirror and wipe away the last tears. When I’m sure I don’t look too crappy anymore I get out of the on-call room hoping I won’t run into the woman I love again.
Our love has been reduced to this is me and this is you!