I'm a freakin' whiner....
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I'm stressed out. I just feel like so many things are going on at the moment.
I've been cutting down on my smoking, but it's hard to keep it up... I want a real cigarette!!! I've gone down from 40 to 10 cigs a day, which in itself is clearly an achievement. Yet still it's stressing me out.
No money.... I got huge bills this month, including the chiropractor bill of 1,562 DKK.... I'm like 40% short on cash compared to what I usually have on my bank account.
*Sigh*
I have to do a lecture at a university college here on Tuesday the 13th. The lecture will be about Recovery, mental illness and such illustrated by my poetry. It's not paid well, but I'm happy to spread the word and break taboos. However doing lectures always freak me out. 25 students or more will sit there, listening to me for more than an hour... yikes. Stressful.... I haven't even prepared anything yet. I hope it'll go smoothly still....
Other than that I think I am just a bit depressed these days... Tired of everything, nothing seems to be able to intrigue me anymore. I HAVE just cut down from 15 to 10 miligrams of Abilify and that might have a lot to do with it.... yet still, life just feels boring and gray. Like an old LP stuck in the same groove. Which is bullshit, because loads of things are happening.... I just don't.... CARE. Mmm, hopefully it'll pass soon.
What a whiny post! God, I sound like an old hag who hasn't got laid in months... pffft.... sorry, guys.
But when it's time to vent, it's time to vent I guess.
And why is no one reading my fanfic???? *Sniffle*.....
Here's a pic of my cat, Anubis, kinda illustrating my mood:
I'm stressed out. I just feel like so many things are going on at the moment.
I've been cutting down on my smoking, but it's hard to keep it up... I want a real cigarette!!! I've gone down from 40 to 10 cigs a day, which in itself is clearly an achievement. Yet still it's stressing me out.
No money.... I got huge bills this month, including the chiropractor bill of 1,562 DKK.... I'm like 40% short on cash compared to what I usually have on my bank account.
*Sigh*
I have to do a lecture at a university college here on Tuesday the 13th. The lecture will be about Recovery, mental illness and such illustrated by my poetry. It's not paid well, but I'm happy to spread the word and break taboos. However doing lectures always freak me out. 25 students or more will sit there, listening to me for more than an hour... yikes. Stressful.... I haven't even prepared anything yet. I hope it'll go smoothly still....
Other than that I think I am just a bit depressed these days... Tired of everything, nothing seems to be able to intrigue me anymore. I HAVE just cut down from 15 to 10 miligrams of Abilify and that might have a lot to do with it.... yet still, life just feels boring and gray. Like an old LP stuck in the same groove. Which is bullshit, because loads of things are happening.... I just don't.... CARE. Mmm, hopefully it'll pass soon.
What a whiny post! God, I sound like an old hag who hasn't got laid in months... pffft.... sorry, guys.
But when it's time to vent, it's time to vent I guess.
And why is no one reading my fanfic???? *Sniffle*.....
Here's a pic of my cat, Anubis, kinda illustrating my mood: