It's 4 AM!!!
It's 4 AM and you may ask yourself, "Justin, why by all that is fattening and unholy are you awake at 4 AM!?" That's an excellent question.
I've been up since about 2 AM, actually. I keep dreaming about sex. This is very much out of the norm for me. The only thing I'm doing differently is that I'm taking those diet pills that are basically high amounts of caffeine and working out. I've been going to bed at 10-11 PM, instead of 8 PM, and waking up at 7 AM, instead of 9-10 AM. I'm also not napping (though I did yesterday for an hour because I was emotionally drained). The pills offset the medication that I use for anxiety and gives me the energy to work out instead of just making me feel physically slow and tired all day.
I'm working out little bits all day long. Yesterday was abs. When I woke up at 2 AM, from my 3rd sex dream, I had to pee. I tried to sit up and found that my body could not sit up like usual. My abs didn't have the strength in them to sit me up. Well, it's actually more like I'd worked them out so much yesterday that they're all sore and damaged from working out that they couldn't sit me up like usual.
So I had to roll out of bed. Well, it was more like I had to throw my legs over the side of the bed and use sore arms (that was the target muscles 2 days ago) to push myself into a sitting position and use them to help propel me forward, because my abs are so sore that when I try to bend forward and use them to straighten up as I stand up, my abs can't do it. I just fell soreness/pain and fall back on my butt to the bed. They're useless at doing anything more than holding my torso upright.
Turning to look sideways hurts my obliques (from working out the abs) and my upper back (from working out my arms). My neck and upper back are stiff and I have to keep popping them to relieve pressure. The crazy thing is that they actually pop when I try to do it. I'm not talking once every 2 hours and only a few vertebrae. No, I can do it every 15 minutes and my neck pops when pressed at a 45 degree angle and it's multiple pops going either direction. My spine pops from top to bottom! Every. Time.
I realize I'm not in very good shape (horrible shape, actually) and I'm actually pushing myself more than I normally would, but I've never worked out so much that I hurt and had failures to actually function normally. I feel the burn and go until my arms simply can't pick up the 10lbs weights and curl/extend backwards with them anymore, or I do so many crunches and crunches while twisting to the left or right that I can't bring myself into the sitting position anymore with just my abs. I have to either use my arms to assist or roll on my stomach and use my arms to assist.
Now I've heard from some people that say that you can build muscle without pain and that pain means you're doing it wrong. Then I've heard that feeling the burn and going until you can't do anymore is the only way to build muscle. I'm inclined to believe that you can only build small, lean muscles with no pain and that you can build bulky muscles only from pressing yourself until you can't do anymore and there is pain. I know the pain/soreness is actually damaged muscle. I also know that when muscle gets damaged your body repairs that muscle. However, the body makes the muscle stronger so that if you do the same thing again the muscle is strong enough not to get damaged. Which is why you use ever increasing weight to build bigger muscle. Because your body grows accustomed to what you're doing to it and will just maintain the muscle you have and not build stronger muscle. You use more sets or more repetitions per set, but not more weight, to make the muscle leaner and able to be used for longer periods of time (building up endurance instead of strength).
And it's the weekend... so there's sex to come. But I'm so sore that I don't think I can participate like I normally do or do it as often as we normally do. But he's got muscle, so he must know what it's like to feel sore and weak from working out. Surely I'll get sympathy and massages, right? That's what I'm asking for from him, and I'm sure that's what I'll get.
I've been up since about 2 AM, actually. I keep dreaming about sex. This is very much out of the norm for me. The only thing I'm doing differently is that I'm taking those diet pills that are basically high amounts of caffeine and working out. I've been going to bed at 10-11 PM, instead of 8 PM, and waking up at 7 AM, instead of 9-10 AM. I'm also not napping (though I did yesterday for an hour because I was emotionally drained). The pills offset the medication that I use for anxiety and gives me the energy to work out instead of just making me feel physically slow and tired all day.
I'm working out little bits all day long. Yesterday was abs. When I woke up at 2 AM, from my 3rd sex dream, I had to pee. I tried to sit up and found that my body could not sit up like usual. My abs didn't have the strength in them to sit me up. Well, it's actually more like I'd worked them out so much yesterday that they're all sore and damaged from working out that they couldn't sit me up like usual.
So I had to roll out of bed. Well, it was more like I had to throw my legs over the side of the bed and use sore arms (that was the target muscles 2 days ago) to push myself into a sitting position and use them to help propel me forward, because my abs are so sore that when I try to bend forward and use them to straighten up as I stand up, my abs can't do it. I just fell soreness/pain and fall back on my butt to the bed. They're useless at doing anything more than holding my torso upright.
Turning to look sideways hurts my obliques (from working out the abs) and my upper back (from working out my arms). My neck and upper back are stiff and I have to keep popping them to relieve pressure. The crazy thing is that they actually pop when I try to do it. I'm not talking once every 2 hours and only a few vertebrae. No, I can do it every 15 minutes and my neck pops when pressed at a 45 degree angle and it's multiple pops going either direction. My spine pops from top to bottom! Every. Time.
I realize I'm not in very good shape (horrible shape, actually) and I'm actually pushing myself more than I normally would, but I've never worked out so much that I hurt and had failures to actually function normally. I feel the burn and go until my arms simply can't pick up the 10lbs weights and curl/extend backwards with them anymore, or I do so many crunches and crunches while twisting to the left or right that I can't bring myself into the sitting position anymore with just my abs. I have to either use my arms to assist or roll on my stomach and use my arms to assist.
Now I've heard from some people that say that you can build muscle without pain and that pain means you're doing it wrong. Then I've heard that feeling the burn and going until you can't do anymore is the only way to build muscle. I'm inclined to believe that you can only build small, lean muscles with no pain and that you can build bulky muscles only from pressing yourself until you can't do anymore and there is pain. I know the pain/soreness is actually damaged muscle. I also know that when muscle gets damaged your body repairs that muscle. However, the body makes the muscle stronger so that if you do the same thing again the muscle is strong enough not to get damaged. Which is why you use ever increasing weight to build bigger muscle. Because your body grows accustomed to what you're doing to it and will just maintain the muscle you have and not build stronger muscle. You use more sets or more repetitions per set, but not more weight, to make the muscle leaner and able to be used for longer periods of time (building up endurance instead of strength).
And it's the weekend... so there's sex to come. But I'm so sore that I don't think I can participate like I normally do or do it as often as we normally do. But he's got muscle, so he must know what it's like to feel sore and weak from working out. Surely I'll get sympathy and massages, right? That's what I'm asking for from him, and I'm sure that's what I'll get.