2009 Year End MeMe - 1st Line of the 1st Post of Every Month
January: Posting this without heavy filters makes me feel very naked, and yet I feel perhaps this will help me reach some comfort point to make a decision on this issue.
February: I know too many masters/dominants/big letter people who, IMHO, don't make good use of the resources of their girls/boys/subs/slaves because their ego gets in the way.
March:We are sitting in our room, winding down before we have lunch with [info]stephilyn & [info]bailey21975 & dorian.
April: so pver the next 2 months ill be doing updates from my crackberry & im tryoing 2 get used 2 this small keyboard.
May: I didn't fall off a mountain...smile...
June: We are in Grants, NM and headed first to Alamosa, CO to the National Sand Dunes Monument, then to spend the night in Salidas, CO, then headed up to Nederland and, since our dinner plans with people in Denver have fizzled, possibly up to Estes Park to spend Wednesday night...details to follow...
July: obedience...the universe doesnt give us orders we are not ready to obey. but why is it that when we receive an order & it is one we want to obey...one that pleases us...that we are sure is alignd with or path, yet that causes others pain & stress...we second guess our 'hearing'?
August: Is it really possible that people's view of me is so far from reality?
September: I write this post half amused, 1/4 sad and 1/4 weary of it all...I guess that is the best way to describe my reaction to this all.
October: For over 18 months I have been checking and waiting for the user name master_wolf, which was inactive, to be deleted and purged...finally... it has been.
November: Its been a year of change from the beginning & it is ending as it began...
December: This week has been bad... well let me back up... 3 weeks ago Mac started acting strangely...laying on my feet under the table, forcing herself to get up in bed with us even though the bed is so high that she rarely made that struggle any more. I sensed she was sad & in pain, but assumed it was either her hips, shoulders or neck problems...
February: I know too many masters/dominants/big letter people who, IMHO, don't make good use of the resources of their girls/boys/subs/slaves because their ego gets in the way.
March:We are sitting in our room, winding down before we have lunch with [info]stephilyn & [info]bailey21975 & dorian.
April: so pver the next 2 months ill be doing updates from my crackberry & im tryoing 2 get used 2 this small keyboard.
May: I didn't fall off a mountain...smile...
June: We are in Grants, NM and headed first to Alamosa, CO to the National Sand Dunes Monument, then to spend the night in Salidas, CO, then headed up to Nederland and, since our dinner plans with people in Denver have fizzled, possibly up to Estes Park to spend Wednesday night...details to follow...
July: obedience...the universe doesnt give us orders we are not ready to obey. but why is it that when we receive an order & it is one we want to obey...one that pleases us...that we are sure is alignd with or path, yet that causes others pain & stress...we second guess our 'hearing'?
August: Is it really possible that people's view of me is so far from reality?
September: I write this post half amused, 1/4 sad and 1/4 weary of it all...I guess that is the best way to describe my reaction to this all.
October: For over 18 months I have been checking and waiting for the user name master_wolf, which was inactive, to be deleted and purged...finally... it has been.
November: Its been a year of change from the beginning & it is ending as it began...
December: This week has been bad... well let me back up... 3 weeks ago Mac started acting strangely...laying on my feet under the table, forcing herself to get up in bed with us even though the bed is so high that she rarely made that struggle any more. I sensed she was sad & in pain, but assumed it was either her hips, shoulders or neck problems...