losing hope
i am losing hope. nobody can really understand the hurt i bear right now. it is just starting to hit me that i will never have a chance with the one person i have really cared about in a long time. he just wants to be friends, if that i guess but i cant even go through my schedule and not be reminded of him. i wish he knew how much i cared about him, maybe he just might realize that i might be worth some of his time. i think i would give anything for just one night in his arms and i wish he could see that. its not like i could tell him this, he would think i was psycho which he already does. why doesnt he realize how much he is liked or thought about? he doesnt pay any mind.the truth hurts me so bad. i know he is going to read this and never talk to me again but i have to get it out somehow. every song i hear reminds me of him. why cant my heart be numb after all this hurt?