ugh
today was okay until i read my own journal.
i wish i could take that whole last entry back and keep it all to myself so nobody could use it to hurt me. why do i let this happen to me? i used to be so strong when it came to this sort of stuff but im falling apart. i cant help it if i feel for someone and it hurts so much when they dont even care. i used to be such a rude bitch about this but now i am all soft and vulnerable. ick. help.
i had to work today and it was just me amar and chrissy but time went by pretty fast i guess. tonight i am going to michelle's youth group and chris burgess is picking me up i think. im really excited but kind of scared at the same time. i need to get back into the christian involvment, it's who i am. i cant wait for excel this year, it's gunna be a blast.
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i wish i could take that whole last entry back and keep it all to myself so nobody could use it to hurt me. why do i let this happen to me? i used to be so strong when it came to this sort of stuff but im falling apart. i cant help it if i feel for someone and it hurts so much when they dont even care. i used to be such a rude bitch about this but now i am all soft and vulnerable. ick. help.
i had to work today and it was just me amar and chrissy but time went by pretty fast i guess. tonight i am going to michelle's youth group and chris burgess is picking me up i think. im really excited but kind of scared at the same time. i need to get back into the christian involvment, it's who i am. i cant wait for excel this year, it's gunna be a blast.
if you read this entry, post a note.