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so whats up people? i went to laurens house yesterday and played a bunch of video games. sonja was there. and aother old greiner friend was there. had a really good time. at least until i realized im alergic to cats. my throat just closed up. but whatever i had fun. thats all that really matters.ummm not much else to say. ive got a really really really bad feeling.idk just do.i usually dont just change from good mood to bad for no reason. but i have and thats never good but..eh whatever
so ya the last few entreys ive been putting out some really heart felt stuff. i think its funny how i thought i had all these feelings bottled up but i only had enough for two entry's worth of crap.ugh!so what is it thats bothering me? i hate it when this happens. i spend all the this time trying to forget. and it works. so well that i dont recognize the face of whats comeback to bite me in the ass.but i do it all the time. i should really stop though. im just makin it harder on myself.
so now its time to figure out why ian has gone nuts!
am i depressed? nope
hurt in anyway? not that i know of
angry? at what?
happy? dont really know any more
so then whats ur fuckin problem? hell i dont know
ugh this is frustrating.i feel weird and i dont know why.but dont worry im not going to try to do what i tried to do months ago i dont even wanna talk about that again.
made peace with the emily thing(dont know why i held on to that as long as i did)
got delt with all my stupid stressers at the beginning of the year. those drove me crazy
i cool with the whole chelsea thing....man she doesnt really know how strongly i feel about her but .............wait! maybe thats it! im brilliant. dont get me wrong i dont expect anything.but maybe i should just talk to her. ya i feel better already.we both said we would go ice skating at the plaza one day....maybe ill take her up on her offer and talk to her then. what if she reads this. i wont have to say anything at all.devil!! eh at this point i dont care.
ill soon figure out what im going to do. but first i must go talk to doctor phil
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so ya the last few entreys ive been putting out some really heart felt stuff. i think its funny how i thought i had all these feelings bottled up but i only had enough for two entry's worth of crap.ugh!so what is it thats bothering me? i hate it when this happens. i spend all the this time trying to forget. and it works. so well that i dont recognize the face of whats comeback to bite me in the ass.but i do it all the time. i should really stop though. im just makin it harder on myself.
so now its time to figure out why ian has gone nuts!
am i depressed? nope
hurt in anyway? not that i know of
angry? at what?
happy? dont really know any more
so then whats ur fuckin problem? hell i dont know
ugh this is frustrating.i feel weird and i dont know why.but dont worry im not going to try to do what i tried to do months ago i dont even wanna talk about that again.
made peace with the emily thing(dont know why i held on to that as long as i did)
got delt with all my stupid stressers at the beginning of the year. those drove me crazy
i cool with the whole chelsea thing....man she doesnt really know how strongly i feel about her but .............wait! maybe thats it! im brilliant. dont get me wrong i dont expect anything.but maybe i should just talk to her. ya i feel better already.we both said we would go ice skating at the plaza one day....maybe ill take her up on her offer and talk to her then. what if she reads this. i wont have to say anything at all.devil!! eh at this point i dont care.
ill soon figure out what im going to do. but first i must go talk to doctor phil
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!