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So, the same crap has been going on with me. Shooting the movie, getting tutored on breaks, getting home, trying to finish my schoolwork, going over my lines for the next day, and hanging out with Jess or Spin. Its a busy life, but worth it.
Went to the launch and couldn't help but tell the reporters the truth about things. Hey, what can I say, the public has a right to know. I'm so tired of putting on a smile in front of them like everything is okay when it's not. Although, I'm sure you've seen it in the magazines and tabloids if you've been to a store at all in the last couple days. I couldn't help it. A special thank you to HER for sticking by him no matter what? Right, because WHO was the one who ruined his gig last year because she was a jealous bitch? Pretty sure that wasn't me. Who was MAD at him and WALKED AWAY during a performance to sulk because he couldn't help the fact that he only liked her as a friend? OH RIGHT. That wasn't me, either. But, oh, of course I was the one who apologized for it, even though I didn't do anything. And he has the nerve to talk about sticking by his side no matter what? That was like...my fucking definition in the dictionary. Manny Santos- you can find her right there by Craig's side even though he doesn't deserve it. You know, I didn't even want to go to the stupid launch. I went for him. And he says that shit right in front of me like its no big deal. AND P.S.- the phrase, "needing space," doesn't mean getting serious with someone else, FYI. But you know what, I'm over it. I said what I needed to say at the launch. And I was serious when I told him I would be happy if I never had to see his face again and that we're done, like, for good. And I'm fine with that. And I can't help but be a little fine with the fact that all the tabloids have rightfully named 'Craig's new girlfriend' as, "the red-headed homewrecker." Everyone LOVED Craig and I; she's going to be the most hated girl in Canada right now and I don't mind at all. No qualms about it here. I couldn't care less.
Anyway, onto brighter things, because I'm done with the bullshit in my life, Alex and Sean, you guys really have a great place! Thanks for letting us come over and stuff. And sorry for um, interrupting your sex in the bushes? It was a lot of fun. Besides the fact that everywhere I walked, there were couples making out or getting it on and I thought I might scream. And then Craig tells me I'm "running away" because I'm moving? No, fuck him, he ran away first. He ran away from the feeling he knows he gets everytime we're together. Besides, it's all over for good now, technically I'm not running away from anything. The strings are cut and I'm moving on with my life.
Oh, and P.S.- Spinner is pretty much the most awesome guy ever. I don't call him my favorite for nothing. Although I have to say I don't really remember what happened the other night. Waking up, definitely not fully clothed, with Spinner sleeping right next to me and not remembering what I did the night before. And then I forgot to set my alarm to wake up to go in to the set, so I pretty much woke up, ran around the room getting ready, popped about five aspirin in my mouth, left him a note telling him I was sorry, I had to get to work, and then hurried off to the set. So...I dunno what happened. If anything did happen, I wouldn't regret it. He's, like, one of my closest friends and I just feel comfortable around him like that. I mean, its not like we haven't even done anything like that before... Plus, he's an awesome cook.. french toast and s'mores... mmm. I think it's your calling, Spin. ;)
Emma, we need to finish talking, okay? If you don't tell your parents you're not eating right again, I will.
Well, I need to go sort through some more clothes to figure out what I'm taking with me to California. You guys know how to reach me. :)
Shit, I just remembered Craig's stupid Christmas present is in my closet all wrapped and ready to go. Guess I need to make a trip to the dumpster.